Today was a tired day for me... i don't know why? but it should be sat badminton training ba. Saying back to sat badminton training, i sundenly have the Mentally of i want to win. I play well against my coach, i was getting closer and i get 21- 15 for the second set. I think i have use my full strenght that why i was so tired today. Not to say after training went city hall to shop and sui bian see fire work.

Tired, when i was forcing myself out of the bed to went for a bonding session... I did not play much as i am late n i don't feel like play also. I am jsut there to bond with my friend, How ever i was quite disapointed with some of my friends. The reason i am for coming was not a success... In the end, end up packing back home to eat.

When i was eating and at the same time, i was thinking...

" so wei hao u have alot of friends but who are your real friends? who are the one who really care about you?

Actually i can't find to that answer of it. My poly friend from semster one, i met desmond as my more good friend, second semster i find someone who is very steady, but too bad i don have much time to bond with him. 3 rd semester is my current class, now i am more clever, i don't want to make so many good friends, cause we are to go different class the next semster.

My rp badminton? year 1 seem proud. my closest badminton friend alvin seem to suan me lousey cause another of my friend say tat to me saying he say tat. maybe he is just kidding? Hope so...
My secondary school friend? Yea seem to have make alot of bros... But then haiz... really don't know which 1 is my real bros. Do they really take me as their bros? but most of the time i don feel it.

Sometime i also think is it people don't like me? or wat? if not why like they don care. Or is it i am too good? or too bad? GOOD ? in wat ways, can't be rite? BAD i don think i am that bad either. I don know how i appear myself to other people but all i know in friendship trying to be steady is the way to bond friendship? should be... but i hope i am not wrong, and i am trying very hard to be steady....

I always hope fri nite would be a good bonding at prata for ws, pd, jl, lw, den, ben etc... Sat day would mostly be a day i spend with mj. Sun i always hope to see all, espcially jj n jw... I actually don't really like to play basketball. I feel that all my friend when play bball seem not very like be themself..1 of my poly friend even more funny, say i no longer plan program after i have gf ah? He never even think always i plan program who will want to go? all feel that they are left out? say we are couple, go very extra... Always this reason how am i able to plan?

Tired ah!!!!

I hope i always will get a reply from my friends ......" What are friend are for"

written at.9:54 AM