My dreams shattered.

It was one of a very disapointed day on tue. Because i fail... I was really disapointed, sunndenly my dream seem to be more further. What the reason of getting kick out in the FIRST round? Am i really that bad? I ask jl, to be a superstar u need to have look n voice rite? But this 2 factor i am that bad meh? Alot of the pervious superstar also nt very handsome but after grooming then much better de. I feel that if i have profassional grooming i can be somehow have the factor? NV? So sad. I really can't think of what i am so lousey, first round i also cannot clear. haiz... Or maybe i join a wrong program? This program is only for people who attend music school? am i rite to say that? or am i bluffing myself? I don noe anything. All this things just flashes through my mind on that day.

I feel that after joining replug i have improve on my stage present, and starting to overcome stage fright already. Because the real audition we will are to sing in the open area( tpy HDB hub). I sing in the open, after when i go back to my place to sit.

The person beside me tell me... " i find out something lei, u don have any stage fright 1"

I replied him," no la, i am just hiding". This maybe show i have improve in my stage presentation. When i go in the real audition room, i did not really feel so scare or frighten, but the red light was on. haiz.... Really don noe what went wrong when my friend ask me what happen why u out n all.

This time i was really quite demoralise, y i never happen to do anything successfully. Why some people just have the luck? CAmpus superstar "renfled" and superband" elfled" both came from a rich family and they are so luckly? both can so call became star? God bring them to a good family and fufill their dream so soon. And so when is mind? I never have my dream come true easy. Really. My dream to come true is was always hard n difficult. My seconday sch day dream was to go poly. Although i did make it, but it was hard. i still need to retake exam which i have put in so much effort during my sec 5 day.

I think i am recovering from the sadness le ba. No point being sad and all. Now is really time for me to set another target. My target?

-Should be past o level this coming time.

-Designing a shoe

- forcing myself to come out with my own song{ half way}

- continue to work hard in singing.

I don think they will have superstar agian next year ba, but then hope they come out with other program which is more fair.

" don call the sell duck rice auntie to be judge la, ai yo"

HAHA, only lw n jl noe what i talking.....

written at.11:29 AM