Today really alot of sad things happen to me. I am very sad right now because she is now no longer she is....

The girl i love most say" she need to have a break and reconsider why are we together in the first place" How sad to see someone writting this to me.

Actually i can already feel that u did not need me by my side after the o level.
I always have this thought she is a girl who love more then i love her, so i must tresure her. But now i think things is really changing.

Now seem to be like i love her more then she love me.

I would never need to think of having what break and what reconsider why are we together in the first place. People do really change. But it all got to blame me also. I teach her to many thing. Maybe that the retribution i get.

She really seem to have lost the factor which i like most. She is no longer naive. My Mj would not have say all this things to me, my mj won't tell me that she want to walk a different path of route home with me.

She always say she want to be pamper by his bf but seriouly you are not allowing me to do so. I want to give you surprises but so many things we cannot do since we always meet 7pm at town? Actually 7pm we go out for what? so many shop are closing. i tell u to avoid sleeping till late, but any changes? nvm....

She say she don want to go to school when i am not in school. I ask why? She say she would be lonely. And hey people" she reach school 10.10( sch start @ 8.30) our break end usually at 10.30. So 20 min of spenting togethering, 20 mintues of seeing each other. Other break time she prefer to stay in class watch his video and doing other stuff. Even when time i am really bored she did not want to meet me... nvm... You do this never mind, but why bother to say thing which is not true? Will you be lonely?

So nvm about this...

Every moring no matter what i will call her to wake her up? WOW, i am the 1 having o level, and have badminton training and badminton tournament i still need to call her? I am so tired and the first think i wake up is " call you!!!! " So i call and call untill she pick up the phone. just imaging i am already a person who is half die lying on the bed and sometime i need to keep redialing the same number. i do all this things i have no regret but what you know? when this girl is awake she don bother to sms me or call me, she just want to get to the station asap but i am still in bed sleeping. sometime even i feel i like i am a fool, i keep redialing but i don even know that she is awake, bathing or what....

So does this girl really love me? Or no longer? I am a very sensitve guy, i need love too. U need people to hong you? i need people to really love me. How much care have you being given me a day? What have you done for me? " i call her to design a no smoking poster so that i can earn some CE point but even she is free, she dont want!. She play her game. She went to macdonal to teach her friend to do photoshop. Now the campaign close already, how stupid i am yesterday just design a poster and in my mind i am thinking of doing 1 poster for her. So does she think this way?

Unlike other couples they chat on the phone every night. we did not... I don't want cause i don feel that i am good in taking. Never mind i prefer sms. But whenever i msg her, she reply so slow, what ever things i want to tell her i also cannot tell. She is doing what? MAple? yes, most of the time she is.... When she reply is always the same old msg" yes i am bath from bath.. bleah..."

The next msg was " i am sleeping soon" are you?" After i replied... sometime she never replied, but most of the time she is awake but doing what i also don't know let me wait for her msg very long.... when is time on bed we are trying to chat about other things, or ask her about thing, No reply already. This girl just fell asleep.... Sometime she hold on to talk but msg still replied very slow. So there will just 2 to 3 reply but our conversation drag about an hour..... Sometime she hold on to talk the next moring when she is late, she blame that i chat with her too late thus she cannot have enough sleep.... WTH... in the fIrst place if we can msg earlier then it won't have such things happening.

Have i ever have a chance of telling you what wiered dream i have during my stress o level period, did you ever have share my nighmare? Some night mare i was really scare you know?

So You always feel that you are suffering? You treat me very well? Seriouly i don't feel it for very long le...

Maybe the weired dream i have mention in my blog before you also never see. but never mind.

Just to tell you sometime. I read ur post a few week ago, you need someone to hong u? sayang you? buy roses for you? I actually seriously would want to do it soon.... But why give me this attitudue early in the moring on our breakfast time? So how do i able to love you more?

HAiz....

so now seem that you are strong, u are good in everythings. Do u still need my care and concern?

hais, i am feeling really down, i am very sad, but i don think you are... You can just sleep right?

If 1 day you don need me to care, tell me.... Then i won't borther to care and disturb your life anymore.....

written at.9:52 AM