update...

First of all i would say that everything now have turn back to usual already. I am no longer that sad. But of course there are certain thing that will make me sad out of a sunden too. I am in a holiday mood but always there are obtacles for me so that why i can't enjoy that much.

All the things i want to do is stop by a word " Money " When you don't have money that nothing that you can do right? I am now in this situation. I am jobless for this month. Now my main objective is not going to enjoy already. Now is to earn money to spent for my future days.

I am quite sad my contact lens just left me aside when they have enough people. Does that reflect on my selling skill? Am i that lousy? I am not for sure but sometime i just did not show off my skill since a few of my teamate can do better then me. So i am jobless, i am finding a job now. I just hope that the agency call me and told me that there a job for me to do for a week.
When i have money then i can really enjoy my x mas and school holiday.

I will stop talking about money and i will write something about school work. 3 rd year module selection i was given a speclisation which i think i cannot do well. How? Studies the things which did not have much intrest? Come to think of it my Poly life was not that good either. I went inside Rp doing a course which i did not really like and end up having to do a specialisation which i don't either like that much.

My specialisation was call " automation " Inside consist of many many programing. Auto? which mean moving? To move you need programming code. Sian... Seem that i will have a hard time in my poly school work. Maybe i should not have choose this Course. Maybe i choose Pk course better " industrial operation mangement" Sound better?

Don't know why? sometime i really want to know how my future will be like. Work as what? I have no talent actually. Always want to console myself my saying i can sing well? But sometime i feel that i am not that good either. I am not a person born to sing, i am a person learning to sing. I really want to heard profasional people like XU huan liang to comment on my singing. So i know weather i am good anot. Seriouly i can't find my own singing style that why sometime i feel singing is hopeless to me.
So what can i do infuture? I don't know.... life is just working hard? I need conselling i think. Because sometime i just have so many question, because i can't make decision, i need people to answer for me.

SO when can my life changes? my luck have never really being good. 1 funny thing i would said. 9625 was my seconday Hp first 4 number. But all the few year i was carrying this number 4d did not came out a single time. But after i pass it to my father, this number got at least come out a few time. (i mean as in any other arrangement la).

OK i think is time to stop blogging le. I Don want to be late for school tml. I want my GPA from 2.32 to shoot up to at least 3. I don't care... I will sure make it!!!

written at.9:31 AM