My life... haiz, have being really bad recently... Starting with my family... My father lost his job, after complaining that the boss have learn her brewing coffee skill... I noe he was kidding to me.... I asked "so many year of experience how can the boss learn Then my father added " is my leg pain la ".
I am so afraid that my father is going to retired soon...

My mum? have just recently quit yakun... Why? my mother say she feel like she is an extra there... indeed she is really an extra, u noe why? the whole nite and day shift team is just nice. Ex day shift have 5 ppl nite shift also have 5 ppl. But my mother is the sixth. Normally my mother got to certain day day shift and certain days nite shift. When ever the team feel her needs " they asked " can u today do full day? and tml work morning shift because another fulltimer is MC? They bully my mother... They bully ppl who is part timer, a soft hearted part timer... And all of the time my mother told me she is there washing cup only when last time when there is a rule of taking turns... Those ppl are really bad.... Team spirts? How to excel in that case?

For myself? my mother n father can affect me alot. They don give me money, i have to spent my own recently. I don dare to buy anything this new year. I only spent on a shirt only. Actually want to buy shoe but i don't think i can spent the money anymore...

Today i want to buy mrt concession, but when i asked my father for it my father told me " my last 50 dollar i used it for my medical already" I actually noe the answer but i wanted to know my family true fiancial state.

My feeling have being down. I am bad at hidding it. I almost cry everyday at home. I don't want my mother to worry too. But sometime i think they do saw me in sadness... I make them worry i think also... I don't want too.

My apptieate have being bad really, esp at home... outside when we eat food at sakae i also no appitieate to eat. i think i eat 5 plates only, kinda waste money... But sometime i still need to keep my " be steadyness" Is Kervin BDay... But, even when i am in sakae i nearly cried... When ever i eat good food it always remind me of this phrase " always eat good food with ur friend? then me lei?" Oh no.... i can't tolerate, i really feel like crying now... haiz... Stop here... Sorry mj...