Music Without U;

Monday, February 26, 2007

to u...

i really have alot to say to you. You don't allow me to speak to you in person so that why i write a letter to you. Could you pls understand me? You know i really miss you. I really know i am at fault... Really. But you should have given me another chance right? I am so stupid, i am slow. Even sometime understanding your post it take time too... You say that i have nv asked you what you think off? i though i have asked too much already? You forgotten how much question i have asked you? Always i asked what you replied me? "Don' t think so much la".. Right? The reason of breaking is because we kept on qurrarelling? I knew that i have bad temper but its because all because is i care for you too much already. Maybe i love you in a wrong way. But I realise my mistake already. But why can't 1 person make a mistake? every person make a mistake right? Last time you told me, sometime changes from you need time, i awaiting so long, till i have no complain. But why does you not allow me to have more time to changes?

I am really like a person who is half dead to know? During the break up time? You say you need to take a break, and after a few days is our break up... how hurt i am you knew? I am just stupidly thinking, "oh, maybe we should take a few week of rest, because resting is for people to move on further" But for our case its is not. Its was just so hurt.... I don't know last time i have hurt you that much, till you say those are my chances.

You feel that you have given me enough chances, but i don't think so... you never told me anythings, how you feel and all. Really " everytime i asked you told me not to asked so much " i don't want to be a person who nag so much you noe?

You know i have really planned to have a grant 1 year anniversary this year. But then you just went out with friend? how hurt i am? I planned for 1 year is to bring you for a candle light dinner... And passed you our couple rings. You forgotten my plans? I Want to bring you a bouquet of flower on that days.. But where will you? I have to change in my plan... Vday was 1 of the most painful day. My gal went out with her friends and throw me aside in the lonely streets? Wat i joke.. I still need to disturb other couples on that day too. haiz...

And Why sometime you just want to think so negativly? In the past you really never tell me alot of things.I am the 1 who is always doing the talking right?

why can't you think if we can get back together you can still be like what you have enjoying now? Sometime is not i don't allow you to do something. Sometime you can asked me for a second time, but you did not? How i know you wanted to?

I always think i have given you enough freedom, because i am very happy that the freedom you have give me too.

I am slow, i am stupid... Why not giving me another chances?

You say love is not about sympathy, but the worst case i don't even feel that you sympathy me. Love don't consist of sympathy. But sympathy consist of care... Care consist of love... There is sure a link.

I have so many things to say to you. I have being missing you badly. Really i swear. I sometime need to see how have you being in order for me to move on a little. I can't be whole day staying at home? thinking of you, thinking why we break out right?

If you don't know this really leave a serious impact in my life...

If you think we don't think alike anymore you are wrong. We still think alike too.

Ok... no matter its is.. I give you time to get rid of that feeling first...

I love you...

written at.1:21 PM