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Saturday, February 10, 2007

why.... it hurt...

Haiz... miserable feeling... why this would happen to me? Was a relatioship so weak? My friend once told me, one sided love is not enough, so i started to change to love the gal i love to the maximun. But when i started to treasure her, She wanted to walk away... Was that a joke? was that a dream? No, but its was not.

I usually tell ppl i don't care about relationship and all. But of course i will swear is not true. I care about relationship... i care about the gal i love.

Always i feel that when you want to be with a girl u must be truthful to her. Tell her everythings, teach her everythings the truth. People usually met girl at first during the "honey mood period" no matter what will sweet talk alot of rubbish. But i won't, i don noe how to also. I sometime even believe sometime guys are so fake. Treat gals, act in front of gals, sweet? nice? all so fake...

But sometime i noe girl are also very naive. Saying this things they think the guy very nice, very gentlement etc...

So does girl really like hyporcitisim? like faker? like liar? I starting to think this way too...

Was our coming 1 year relatioship really so weak? I love when i really love. I do something i will really do. So why do you don love me when i am deeply in love with u?

Have you really forgotten the happy time we spent together?

PK Chalet? Sentosa? taking photo at esplande? K boxing, dueting? talking about lame joke?
taking about how the tortise told the worm? Ticklering each others?

You say i was not a good bf for the 10 month. Maybe you are right, but i learned during the days.

But, i wake you up everyday for school without fail.

I accompany you every week even i am busy.

Everynight at least will wait till you have sleep then i will sleep.

Reply your msg ASAP.

Will not let you worried.

I am never close with other girl friend.

Never msg girl and chat with them.

Encougae you to do things which is good for u?

After the 10 month, i even accept you working with 3 guys in FYP. U noe how jealous i am? But i learn to let you go for freedom. You want to have ur regular night life, i gave you....

U late in a circumstances of when me telling you to leave house, i also did not complain much.You say i have strong ego I still have but not to you, only to others. I don mind be bully by you just to make you happy.

But when you tell me ur feeling ...... u noe how sad i am? no matter what i encouage you, how much care and concern which i give you can so easy be lost? Haiz....... Shi bai de wo....

是你决定我的伤心, 如果我们还会重新相遇, 我会用感觉拥有所有的你...

written at.10:38 AM