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ALWAYS BELIEVE... LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL
I wanted to say...
So many things i wanna to say... But i don't know how to tell you.... Love,is such a strange things. About me now? Poor i would say.... To me now, every cent count already. I keep owning my brother money. This time i really no money le. Don't know how to spent the next few week already. No money, no outing? Pay will be out on starting aprail... But to spent this week finish i think i got to lend another 50 dollar from my brother, but i don't know he would anot, cause he just lend me 50. hee.
Now to me, everything seem so plain. But now i think is really time for me to really open my eye bigger. Countinue looking for my way.
Sometime i asked myself? Why love just leave me? Am i really not good? So the answer was really a yes... I was really no good.
First of all, i don't have money. I was so call born poor. (But i was never unhappy from what my parent have give me). I don't have a driving lisences, i don't carry any cards. I don't carry good phone.... I bring gf to lousy places to eat, unlike others guy bring their gf to expensive place.
I don't have somethings which i can really proud of... How?
I was not tall either. How can a girl have sense of sercurity with me? I was not fit? So skinny look like a monkey too.
I was not handsome either.
I was not clever in studies too.(retake o level math 3 time) My brain don't work well with studies. I always fall asleep when its come to reading. I have a illness.
I talk too much crap.( ya, sometime i really do) I will try to cut down. But don't find me too quite sometime. But all my crap was just to entertain ppl around me, not to feel bored with me.
From now... I will try hard to improved all my bad point. And i will get all the things which i don't have. Its is never easy. But i will work hard for it. If not how would i be able to have a girl lending me her trust? How can i allow girl to relied on me, when i don't have all this.
I will work hard for my dreams. I want one days my family to be proud of me.....Which i don't have done b4. I noe u did not ever feel proud of me being ur bf too... Nvm...
I want someday, my gf will be proud of me.....
I want people to be proud of this name " Fu Wei Hao"
But Ya, i am thinking of changing my chinese name too, Seem like my this kind of name will never have a great prospect in his life. Seem like this kind of normal name meant to lead a hard life....Maybe will visited a fortune teller? Ask for a good name, ask, will i be someone useful anot....
written at.1:34 PM