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ALWAYS BELIEVE... LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL
So hurt
Today, i woke up early. I mother have a shock too. All its because yesterday i could not sleep well last nite. I was so badly hurt, and pain. The girl which use to treat me, nice, sweet, cute is no longer there for me anymore... The girl who i use to love, pamper, joke, hurt me the most that i have never use to hurt... My heart is really bleeding...
Say kang told me last nite " she never understand ur house fiancial, she also never understand you as a first timer in love. Maybe he is rite this time? Because simple is not sweet at all.... Everytime i though i would walk slowly in a relationship so that i could walk the relationship longer. But i was so wrong this time... When you chances have past, you wasted your chances and eventually all this will be leading to lateness...
There are so many things which i still want to spent togther with. So many things we have not done before.
So many sweet things i have kept inside me...
I knew u have enjoyable time with them. But what i would say is, no matter what, guys will always sweet talk 1st...
I knew... Dining at chicken rice stall can never compare to sky dinner. I knew sitting on a bumboat can never compare to just sitting on the esplande chair taking photo. Hot air baloon can never be compare to a journey we use to take bus to a journey to tangline campus.
Normal ktv will sure lose out to a pub....
But all i could have told you was i am really trying very hard to make all this happen, But all just take time you know? I am poor.... But what i always hope is that i could have given special love, special care which no other guys have given you.
its really so painfull, when you always think back of the past is all just sad memories with me... Why can't i have the chances like what other guys have. A 3 hour ktv sesson with you only? Nt even a proper 1 day outing i could spent with you? a bday celebration?
If only you can understand me as a first timer in love, if only if u still look back is happy memories...
Guys will never really fall for a girl after they have lost just lost the 1 they love. Because for guys... After all... guys will always love back their old 1 only...
I feel like jumping down the building now... Haiz....
written at.8:51 PM