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So... things just happen. When bad things fall on u, its really falls badly on you. Maybe its time to blog about my ah ma.
During my break up with gf was the time when my ah ma admit to hospitals. And my ah ma broke his leg when waking up from her bed.
So we all think that its would just be her leg problem only. At first his leg would be able to fix its back, so i though she is recovering already. But when you are old your body is weak and problem occur. Even when mend it back, the doctor say that the toxic just stuck his is foot there and can no longer flow. So there is a need of so call dailsis,( washing, and sucking out all the toxic) During this period of dailsis, was such a painful period for my ah ma, as even my uncle say he can heard my ah ma shouting here n there. The normal dailsis machine could not work and there is a need to use a special 1, 100 dollar once per use.
My ah ma on certain days feel so pain, and she pull off all the needle on his body and refuse to eat. So the adults have no choice, but to tied her up to the bed, to prevent her from plucking all those medical needs.
Days have passes, and the doctor just recomend us to cut off my ah ma leg as its was the best choice, as, his leg can no longer fuction, and also to prevent more pain of the dailsis machine.
Legs have being cut of as everyone think that she will be ok. As for me i also think so and happy that she can return home soon.
I have a emotional time due to the fact that my love left me, i did not visit my ah ma once in hospital. Because i was busy with my work, busy making myself busy, busy with emotional.
Yesterday, went to schools with my injure legs and was so paisei that people was watching me walking so slowly. Went home alone as there is no 1 to accompany me cab home. Moreover i need to hurry back to see wheather my leg condition has turn better anot.
Reach home, i was fastrated with my mum. Because when i reach home early, and no 1 was at home. Call my mum and asked her: " i thought i told you be stay at home during this time, i never bring key u should know rite?"
Mum answer me: " yea, you wait awhile can?
Hao:how long? where you?i need go toilet lei.
Mum: i at ah ma house.
Hao: oh, ah ma, recover and came home already?
Mum: Ah ma, go already le.
Hao: stun... why?
Mum: go already lo...
During that time, my fastration tone also tone down alot and do not know what to say anymore. Mum told me, Almost everyone was there, and i am one of the little which did not go.
My family cab home after 30 min and i ask my brothers what happen to ah ma? And they told me is that there a lung virus attack and that is the reason.
Mum told me, my close cousin was one of them who cry so badly. And during that time i can really imagine how the situation over there. Mum told me that ah ma did not open her eye in the hospital but when she is send home, her eyes open very widely...
After my unmarried uncles talk to my ah ma, and told her that he will take care of himself then my ah ma close his eyes and left this world.... Mum say, Ah ma wish to die in her house and not the hospital. And maybe that why she took a last look at his house once more.
After my unmarried uncles talk to my ah ma, and told her that he will take care of himself then my ah ma close his eyes and left this world.... Mum say, Ah ma wish to die in her house and not the hospital. And maybe that why she took a last look at his house once more.
Being to the furneral today.. And alll the praying and kneeing i could not do, due to the fact that i injure my knee. So pai sei, because when the whole family is kneeing, and i am standing.... At first i try to, but the monk told me that i can sit at the side. But i feel useless la, even my father leg pain also knee but i never.
Sitting down the void deck, certain time saw my uncle feeling so sad, i also started to feel sad. But i must act like a man. Atmosphere was tense at first but when settle down kids just run around and eventully bring some joyness to the guest and us.
Sitting down all days i was folding the papers, listening to song, Msging too. Got to thank seaweed for listening to my crap during that time. U are good seaweed. :)
After dinner went back home. Feeling so tired and i just sleep on the hard floor with my sticky body. Nap for an hour and went to bath, and i came online....
This things added some stress to me and of course all the ppl. Ppl need to take leaves and for those who is schooling need to pon sch. I don mind ponning if i am in sec school, but now Rp, my grade suck. Really suck. And what more monday is another Ut? And sunday i will be down there.
Few more week to closing of PP submission and i did not know who to interview.
Stress, stress.. Really... I don't wanna retain to do PP. This coming weekend i was shedule to work again, and where is there a time for me to really search for pp things.
But can my leg reover in time just to do all this things? Can i have the time to really complete my pp? Alot of things i have to cancel due to this stupid injure i am having now.
And its seem like there is no mother day celebration this year.
What a long post today. maybe i should really came out with a plan to shedule and deal with all the things which is coming...
written at.9:27 AM