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Back from excerising not long. Because i excerise at 12.30am outside the corridor.... The atmosphere was quite scary as the light at the stair are all close. Leaving on the light to shine the lift area.... I was not afaird of any other things but afraid that i might scare others.... Also i am afraid that the police came to me. Imagining certain time i sit down and rest with my body sweating. Will people get a shock if see someone like this? Maybe i should avoid so late excerise, but should done it around 10 plus.
So today done around 2000 of skip, 50 to 80 push up, dumbell 30 on left, 30 on right.....
But at this rate i am cutting down alttile.... I asked myself? what els can i gain on that? And my muscles from head to toe are really so tight nowaday... Till i feel that its not good for my body.
And today... finally our fyp team started to quarrel. But really have u all ever think why i am always late? Because i am really tired and my life is already stressful enough... For the past few weeks? our teams are really not moving, Why sometime u all need me to motivate rather then motivated by ownself? Who am i? I know i am motivated in the first place. But I have my own things to settle too. Saying that i was always came late, yes, its very true but have anyone things for me why do i came late? Most of the wednesday we are just wasting time... The project is not moving.... haiz...
All of my team menbers went to attend a talk and left me alone, from 1.15pm to 5pm. So what can i do? instead of getting angry? ppl angry for me first.... I am tired, haiz...
But everythings is over... Blog is just to let u all understand how i feel. And really apperciate the apologise just now. I won't put it to heart, cause my lateness is a fault too.
and got to say sorry to u all if i really let my emotion effect myself and affect the teams. I just need some more time to get back my motivation ok? Just let me have sometime to think.... What should i want in life....
i am sorry for my attidue in class too. I am disapointed with myself too... I will do some self reflection... But seek for all ur understanding....
written at.11:37 AM