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ALWAYS BELIEVE... LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL
So a number of things i have done today.
First i would say today i am very happy to went chong pang with my mum. It was ever since so long that i went chong pang with her to eat. Although my motive was not to eat but to sign up new ATM card. :) I finally sign up debit card and i am happy. ONline purchase... lol.
While eating i talk about myself to mum.Very strange things when we grew older we do really share more personal stuff to parent am i rite to say that? I told her that yesterday coach say my training attidue suck, and of course she just laugh...
So why did coach say that to me? Its because last thurday after a freaking 45 min of badminton running drills it nearly kill me. And i took a freaking 1 hrs break myself. I went to sit at a coner to rest. Coach went toilet to find me, but of course where gt ppl rest in toilet 1? I rest in a sofa area with my sweat still dripping.
And yesterday he say that things which he ask me to do i do everything under expectation. He say my trainnig attidue suck i agree, because i have no longer have any heart in training. Even though i really like to play badminton but always there is another side of me saying this " train so hard for wat, train already i can be rich? can became a occupation?" And do coaches know the reason why i take an hr break? Reason - i have being taking 2 to 3 hr of sleep due to fyp and (some other reason)countinous for about 2 wk, I took 1 hr break and i slept at the sofa.
Seriously i feel that i cannot muti task well, there is always lack concentration in some part of me. Do u think my body can take it when i slept for 3 hr, attend lesson, and still need attend badminton, and the next day i still need to go sch with whole body aching? To be a sport man is really hard.
After that training it really make me think alot, and refresh my own mind what i want?
And recently i also tell my mum about my future plan target and all. And sometime she say to me " u everything also want lo"
And after lunch with mum went acer to fix laptop, i spent sometime walking and searching the place, and went i walk out it was embarssing that i saw the same acer buidling after 20 min of walk. All i say today i too depend on "feeling" I walk blindly, but when i really think the route i walk out.
After i met alvin, accompamy him to job interview....
And now its really time to for me to plan my shedule well. So i could be able to spent a meaning ful 3 week and able to complete the things i need to complete.
Oh no, still haven gt to take my pass O level Cert at MOE.
Life is still hard for me... But sometime some self relection make me awake a little and now i really understand that family bonding is very important.My bro and i set to bring parent oversea for holiday. My new aim finally....
written at.11:17 AM