MUSIC WIthout YOu

2009-06-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, long time since i blog. OK i will do a short 1 for those who do still visit it.
i will list down in point form of what i have being doing recently.

- camp life recently are in lesser load, but there still lot of stuff to do.
- I am taking part in army half marathon.
- helping out in NDP, but my team have not being very active.
- doesn't feel very well this week.
- Have being pubbing n clubbing to release stress... lol..
- wanting to watch japanese drama online but too lag, very angry now...
- fall in love in wondergirl already... keep on watching their video on u tube.
- neck n back have being very stiff, just went for massage not long. ( going again)
- quite poor recently...

this are some activities which i am doing. Today just visit a few dental clinic my plan to braces in nearer but stressful. Because i will be very poor after i do it...

I gt lot of teeth to pluck out. n wisdom tooth extraction is very ex. That really give me some stress... anyway i am booking in already... good bye.

2008-04-21T11:28:00.001-07:00

2008-04-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

Updates for this few days...

Anyway i was slacking this few days... And really time for me to work more already.
Enlistment date is out, and i am excited. Alittle of fear but alittle of happiness.
Because after the 2 years, is then time for me to search for my own route in life.
I did plan my future, and i know what i want to do for my future...
Now my life i feel more carefree... Even though enlistment date drew nearer and nearer but now i know how to treasure my life more.
Few days ago i even went down to roadshow to help out a newcomer for a few hour. Eventually after i help her out i feel so happy. As least i done something meaningful.
Tml i am back to work... Roadshow at causeway point which seem to be a much better place ba. KW will be coming over looking for me to have lunch. :)
Day by day working at roadshow i know more and more people... Some seem really nice to talk to, but some i don noe how to say lo... Because sale ppl are cunning u noe? But of course i am the most innocent one... hahaaha
But i still want to thank them for talking to me, if not i will bored till i die. Enough of work stuff...
N finally i have ate my dinner at home for so long. And i think i should eat home cook food more often ba... Sometime is really nice u noe? Sitting together, watching tv etc... I will really miss home cook food when i enter NS ba...
And also today i took a afternoon nap...So long ever since i took an afternoon nap lo. The last time i took an afternoon nap was the last few day of my poly lesson time ba.
After the afternoon nap i sundenly have the mindset of telling myself, i should think positively in life. I don't understand why, this few year of my life i have being too negative already. So I MUST CHANGE!!! And i WILL...

My freelance life is great... Working at contact lens roadshow is just like going down talking to people and i earn money just by talking... lol.. Is nice thinking that way.( but stress sale lo )
Having new lens, and i am proud to say it is good... :) How good? MSn me i tell u...

My mentality rite now is not for money but for meaning... And i think slowly slowly money will come when u do it rite...

I treasure my day from now...

PS: My true indentity??? And it is not a crap...

2008-02-15T09:38:00.000-08:00

New Music without you have lauched. A blog with no sadness but only joyfulness.( i hope)
THe link here will not be taken off.. for a reason...
PPl pls relink me....

http://music-without-u.blogspot.com/

I hope my new blog will entertain more people...

2008-02-12T09:39:00.000-08:00

I done 2 things which i feel so happy.

Firstly,i have fix my rollerblading wheel already, it no more produce noise and it is smooth, and fast...
Secondly , is i finally brought myself a new ear piece. And it come with a warrantly of 12 month...
Cny shopping is not enough, i still want to shop more...

Have being quite free recently.(Which i don't like) N
New Music without U blog on the way....

2008-02-06T21:23:00.000-08:00

The day before new year eve, I was working. (Probably the last day at that place). I was so worry about my CNY Stuff and the whole day I was brainstorming what to buy. Leave work place early as I think everyone was in their New Year mood. Oh ya, it was really a very embarrasses to let the person working in the job to found out actually we have a promoter blog. And they actually Read It!!!! Really very pai sei cause we write down our New Year resolution and stuff. Before I leave, she still Suan me…
“ wah, 7 gf before NS hor? “

Wave good bye and rush down to Plaza sing and the time was already 9.30, unexpectedly I was able to get 2 tee and 1 jeans. It was really speed shopping I would say.

My day ended like this and New Year eve was a great family bounding day. Went for another CNY spree, thinking to get shoe and some top, but in the end I only brought Cardigans. This year style is more to Korean fashion ba….

I bring my 2 elder brothers to skate around sem. They are super talent in skating, they are able to blade urban ( skating around road and pathway) with me, with just a few minutes of warm up. After skating went back to have our reunions dinner, one of the most simple reunions dinner we have but one of the most special one.
After dinner decided to watch movie, So this year movie was my treats!!! Happy happy…. But only alittle Ex. Cause the movie isn’t what I expected. It not very nice actually.
OK, sign off and more update on CNY…

2008-02-01T09:26:00.000-08:00

EMo emo... LAst day of school... Want to blog something long but i am quite tired right now. All i have say is i have spent my time wisely with friends...
So does anyone know why i am so emotional? Will explain on the next post ba... More picture... or maybe a recap of my 2007? or maybe a recap of my poly life...

2008-01-20T08:26:00.000-08:00

I came with good news and bad news...
Edwin 21th birthday have just past. Another high Kbox session we have. We sing all the way from 10am to 6am at Cine8.
Reach home at around 7am and have a 2hrs nap and get back to work. Working was quite relax but some point of time i nearly doze off when both my them went off for lunch.

On the way home, i miss my stop and sit over sembawang. Reach home with a heavy foot and sundenly found out that my beloved Arowana is no longer in the tank...
Really quite sad because we bought it at near 400 when it was 3 inich, but now it is about 12 inch it dies...

I am very tired already. But my health and mental condition is better this weekend...

2008-01-18T09:25:00.000-08:00

Watch America Gangster today. And everybody was complaining that their finance was in an unstable state. So I have one question in mind to ask? So is January the poorest month of the years for poly student?

I have found out this month I am really in financial crisis already, that really lead me into my low self esteem moods. Come to think of it, there would be an exciting month ahead which is Chinese NewYear.

But before Jan ended, Bros bday are coming up. After Seah 21th bday, is now Edwin turn. I don’t think I am able to get a good present for his 21th day le… Sian… After Edwin would be my RP badminton friend Alvin 21th bday, Follow by ben on mid feb. And of course later slowly is ME!!!
21th birthday is a date really to remember. I hope I will able to give them better present. Especially those I know for really long. So Wei Hao you really need to earn a lot a lot a lot of money!!! Not only for yourself, but for your family, your friends and those who care.

But I got a feeling that I will be sick very soon. Recently body feel very uncomfortable. So New Year resolution this year would be, I want to be healthy this year, very healthy… 

2008-01-09T09:39:00.000-08:00

Today i skate with this blade.
Bought it second hand from JH. A nice skate... This was the first ever freestyle skate...
And today i fell, my arm hurt...

2008-01-06T09:27:00.001-08:00

I have an depress and emotional week. Maybe is because of the long working hour
and all I can do is to crap all way till I knock off. Chatting with people make me feel happier. If there is sale of course I am even happier…
Finally weekend was here, and I finally have someone under the name of the same company to talk to.
With someone working with time really fly… She was a pisces and of course I am so we click really quite well. So does horoscope able to tell someone character…
End work and was about to take train back home instead of the chalet. And she say maybe I should have go for the chalet and feel some joyful atmosphere.
So head to the chalet….
The chalet was great!!! Not regretted to go…. Cause It happening….

I think I have attended the most happening chalet in my 21 year of life… Everyone was so high… High to the extend I could not take it… Maybe I did not drink alcohols and that the reason….
Everyone have fun…

And once again happy 21th bday to seah….

2008-01-02T11:03:00.000-08:00

I have badminton phobie already. I don wanna play badminton at competition level anymore. N today i lost a game. Suppose to be my last game in poly life. Sorry rp badminton N good bye badminton.
i am no longer a sport men...

2007-12-30T09:16:00.000-08:00

Came in to update alittle.
Have being working alot recently... And i don't really have much time to shop.
Although i have being buying alot of things lately but none is for new year.

I want to have a haircut Asap(urgent)...
I want to visit the gym...
I want to go for a swim...
I want to go east coast blading...
I want to go Kbox with them...
I want to shop for new year clothes...

But i have no time......

2007-12-09T10:20:00.000-08:00

It's true that my blog need maintainace. So i am going to upgrade my blog soon. I promise this time i want to do a better jobs. So catch my new blog URL soon.
I have completed my poster... Finally...

December will be a damn busy month for me already.
But i am prepare for it...

2007-12-01T01:54:00.000-08:00

yea! Back with good news, and we got the highest point in the category. The section that I show off was of course badminton, and maybe soccer ba. I miss out the award presentation as I thought that we won’t win and i went to the toilet to change up.
But when i came back, my friend show me this....

And yesh! Finally i got my first medal in polythenic already, i was seriously happy.
I think the most challenging part for me is snorkeling. How to swim with the flipper? I really don't have any experience... I did struggle alittle to swim to the other side,but back i did better.
So many other station for the event. I like the akido one too...
Some picture we have took after the event.

(From left = kennth,Alan, alan buddy, melvin & me )

So after saw pk at club room and we walk to cwp to eat and home sweet home.
I think i better get change now, if not i will be late for Show concert....
Exciting Exciting.... :)

2007-11-29T09:18:00.000-08:00

Have nightmare again when taking my nap, it’s a little crap though.
Types halfway through describing my nightmare but after awhile I think I should not. Cause I really think, who really care about my nightmare? Lol…

Tml is RP Ultimate challenge, its an annual event. I have team up with 1 of my friend who in canoeist plus 2 of his other friends. They are damn funky people as the initial plan was to wear long sleeve with tie plus a boxer, of course I reject this idea. Ya, cause there will be an award for the best costume for the event. Wearing till that way I was seriously afraid, cause will we look nice on that? Maybe I would try funky hairstyle tml though. Hehe. So our conclusion was to wear whole black, but I think all 3 will be in sleeveless, they fit ma, I skinny…. Nvm… I wear t shirt.

Don know we got a chance to win anot, seriously speaking I nv saw the 2 of his friend before. But I agar agar know who is referring to. So I still don’t know their strength.
Game involves tml will be, badminton, basketball, soccer, life saving, a lot a lot a lot more… Hope tml I will return with good news…. : )

2007-11-20T00:40:00.000-08:00

Msn have being block for two days due to some virus attack. So school seem so quite and there is nothing much we can do on our laptop.
Always irritated by the loud china classmate talking across the classroom. So during break out i try not to stay and have a longer lunch break.
Have not being playing badminton so see my good friend go i also go lo.Hope that the trainning is not so intensive.
i am listening to jay song now,and finally is time for me to listen to his ablum. Have lot of news song for me to listen. Raine ablum was great, FIR was even better, and Energy also not that bad. Have not listen to jolin new ablum yet, but not really like ai wu se.
Some Great ablum to look out this month.... Guang liang, Fish leong and SHOW luo!!!
ELVa and SHow - bai ge ni.
Alvin and KW should be on their way to find me, hope later training will be a fun 1.
I hope i don't see fake, backstab, irritating ppl there.

2007-11-17T09:52:00.000-08:00

I have progress doing to a forward powerslide already. And seriously it is cool.... hehe. What a tired day for me... And getting my freestyle skate real soon.

2007-11-15T08:43:00.000-08:00

I am really thinking about my lifestyle, why am i always late? Did i sleep too late, or really my time managment wise?
So i asked the china gal beside me:

"eh what time you sleep last nite? Y u never late one?
Her: 3am lo.
me : wah, so late ah, then why you don't look tired one?
Her classmate: Li hai ma, she smile.
Me : so what did you work at?
Her : at pa sa ma lam lo..
Me: wow, not bad ah? u have this type of lobang, what you sell?
Her : i sell bao lo.
Me : So ppl always call you auntie le la.
Her : ya lo...
Me : Wah, then ppl sure always ask autie cha sao bao yi ge rite?
Her : HUH? (stun) NO la, i sell "bao bao" (BAG)
Me : lol...

When i went to my 3D elective class, i then really feel that i am attending a class. Because it is more like singapore.... And their joke are freaking lame. Same frequency.... lol

2007-11-13T23:04:00.000-08:00

I sometime just don’t know what to say about them.
When they know they will be coming a few hour late for meeting and they don’t know how to inform you the previous day. They must wait till you msg him then they will tell you. When you reach they told you to inform your supervisor about the meeting time of the project. So in the end they are very late, and thus they did not want to come. And you asked why never inform you about coming so late. The reply was…. “How am I supposed to know that the cabs did not want to come ah???”...ok, fine…
But so how was it going to be like when you have told your supervisor that WE are going to meet him but they are not there?
No point talking to them that for sure because it will end up quarreling. But I just hope they will do some self reflection.
No matter what I still need to be cool and “REN”

2007-11-10T10:52:00.000-08:00

Finally went East Coast Park for skating. And fount out that actually li shi was so good in skating. But nvm, in 1 month time I will win u. LOL.
And after that we went Semei ITE for last match of POl- lite tournament. And seriously Rp badminton did badly. And we only manage to get 4th. So what the reason behind it? Few word to describe, no team spirit, complacent,look down on others. Actually quite sad for the result too, cause I though I would be posting picture up on my blog showing us getting the medal. But… Haiz. Last match and that really make a mark down on my badminton career. But I would still be going back training, if only I am free. Not A commitment of 3 training a week. Badminton really make me lost a lot of my time and so sadly I miss den and lw bday celerbration…. But tml I won’t be missing lena bday partly. Tml should be an exciting day ba. Get to see CQ dress nicely and all… : ).

Have being practicing my sliding skills today. And yes, I master backward power slide. Sorry not much picture for uploading, but there should be soon. Next east coast park blading should take picture le. hee..

And this is lena, tml would be her 21 bday. First time in my life i recieved invitation card for friend birthday party.
I think time for me to go to sleep le.. NIte

2007-11-07T08:55:00.000-08:00

Went urban skating today, and it was really so dangerous. It seem like today I blade the longest hour in my life.Blade from freaking 4pm to 9pm.
And incidents happen to us when we are in Marsiling area. 1 of my friend, JH was in front , Vic was be behind and I was in their center. Going down a slope , when you look left it was a drain without those green railing blocking, when u look right it was a high speed road. 2 passer by, was on the way and JH does a T brake to reduce speed. But I was rolling to fast to react to do a T brake. I was thinking I could wait for the 2 person to cross the road then I slowly does a T brake. But JH was afraid I could not stop so he immediately grap hold of me and we knock into each other in that crampy pathway. In that instance I make a right turn and it was toward the roads, I could do nothing but to just fall straight on my knees. I was on my guards so no injury for me. Just then vic from behind could not react to us falling on that slope so he does a beautiful slide on his butt lying down straight to the ground. That was really a clever reaction by him. But first things he ask me when he got up, Does my jeans have any hole on it?
Just imaging what if I roll off to the roads, or what if we knock into each other and fell into that drain….
Lots of event coming up, and I want to wish those birthday on nov a Very happy birthday.
Starting from Fiona, (3rd of nov), LW( 5th of nov ) Elder brother NOV 7 , lena this sat, and Vic next Wednesday.
And tml is my shopping day again….

2007-11-05T00:02:00.000-08:00

Today was the 3rd day of Subaru challenge and I am not involved due to tournament. Just some update of what happen on the second days. It’s was another exciting day it seem more like a carnival to me rather then working. We start of our day by playing the game ourself.

(choosing their circle)

(And they say must endure for more at least 5 min)
Playing the game under the hot sun and not knowing the gal are just the entertainment for the contestant. But I was clever enough not to play, but just to sit around with them.
Lots of dispute happening in the subaru challenge, there will fight too. Constentant not happy with the marshal decision of kicking them out.
Before i left, the number of contestant left was 51 guys and 51 ladies.
Hear that the event will extend to the 4th day. Too bad tml is my tournament date too. OPPs i am lates for tournament already.
More update coming up....

2007-11-03T09:54:00.000-07:00

I pray it will rain today, that was the evil though I have in mind. Not caring about those Subaru contestants because when it rain I do have to work. But today was still a fun day.
Met new 3 new friends today and don know why I just have a feeling I met them before, and they seem very similar to me. I don’t know why also. Could they appear once in my dream before? Lol.
Saw all sort of funny people at orchard, and from the contestant some are really weird. They wore long sleeve, long black pant participating for the contestant. And the sun was really burning. This year they are giving out 2 car, 1 for the female and 1 for the male. And really got to praise those contestants endurance. Because it was really a difficult to endure such long hour.

(Picture in day time)

( and that our ciba endurance game, it can goes up to 2 hrs)

( In the night)

So after watching them endurance, i sundenly feel time is so important. 5 min is just far too little for them. And they need to wait for another 7 hrs to have their 5 min break...
Hope to see them again tml.... Good luck and 3 cheers...

2007-11-02T12:03:00.000-07:00

I was in a dilemma whether to buy havanas slipper or Rip curl slipper. I choose Rip curl because it suit me better. But now it is causing me problem. Cause they are causing me to have blister. In between my toes are the most painful part, what more I sweat when playing badminton or blades.

My fingers got blistered too. And it never recovered because I have to use the same old area to press strength to hit the shuttle. Sian, really pain sei.
And lots of events are coming up, I just hope I will be free for all and no clashes of time.
And today is the start of my 1 week vacation. : )
Subaru challenge start tml….

2007-10-29T10:40:00.000-07:00

Yo people, here are my napfa test result.

Standing board jump - 270cm
Sit and Reach - 49cm
Shuttle Run - 9.1 seconds
2.4 Run - 10.11 min
Pull up - 7 time

And it is 27 over 30. Not a result i want because i aim for a full 30 mark.Because pull up i only do seven time. That was the worst pull up record i ever done. Actually i have done 11 time but 4 was minus aways due to the arm putting nt straight enough. That the only station which i get 3 point. Damn it!!! But blame on myself for being complacent, by not doing any pull up training. Pull up there are some tips also. But got to depend on what ur instructor want also...
I think compare to sec 5 result all are not as good as that time, except standing board jump...
I am tired, blog again very soon...

2007-10-24T09:40:00.000-07:00

Are ready for some real Muay Thai? This is what I heard every Wednesday but of course not today. Cause the contender have ended. It fun working with them as we gt to see real muay thai fight. It’s exciting…. And I am getting back my usual life soon.

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Have skipped numerous of soccer game with ch and gang feel bad and feel abit tempted to play. But should be next month ba. RP 1 week vacation is coming and I am really looking forward. Because when the vacation ended, it’s also means badminton tournament end, and it allow me to step down and rest. Although I know I will miss badminton, but project and work are still the most important things right now.
Have being spending lesser time with friends and more time alone, and I sometime do feel that I grow up a little. Always when I am alone I keep thinking, and do self reflection, asking question to myself and yesh congrat to me, I am finally awaken and finally getting better. And now I have a very strong objective to achieve my goals. And I aim to become an educator.

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And finally after so long I got my pay!!! Very happy about that, though not much, but I am just happy la. Thank ppl who have helped me through the period I am poor. Hee. Thank ppl like den, jl, ben and others la, always like sponsor me few coin few coin, and that may add up alot. Hee.

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In return Prata on my House!!!

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Ps: btw sorry to bored you with words… haha… More picture coming up soon cya…:)

2007-10-14T08:57:00.000-07:00

Bad day for me today... Tired

And i think sometime i should ask for help....
That was PQ advice when i met her on the way back home at marina square.

2007-10-11T02:32:00.000-07:00

Guess the only time I am free was the time before I go for badminton training. And I am now alone in class waiting for Alvin and Kw to training. So I choose to blog....
Recently have being really busy with my life because I want to live my life to the fullest. And I really feel that I did it. Maybe a little tired now, but I think I could handle my time well. And now it was training for me, training for me to grow stronger and be able to be more focus.

Although there are times that I feel weaker but I told myself that I will stand up the next moment after I fell.
Recently have listen back to Elva song 最熟悉的陌生人 due to 1 of my friend saying that we are one. But this song doesn’t mean what she have claimed.

Yea, a lot of time after sometime have happen and they break apart as 最熟悉的陌生人.
Difficult time are going to be over and I tell myself I will be stronger.

Going for badminton training rite now, and tml was my first time...
My first time ponning school.... lol...

2007-10-05T00:08:00.000-07:00

School are getting more and more boring...
Am i am starting to feel that is ok to pon school for money!!!

I saw today in class, and i feel guys are really very ti ko pei.... Should i join them? lol.
Listening to ah mei song, and in love with this song "ru guo ni ting shou"

I will remenber this and tell myself - WH drop your ego!!!

2007-09-27T10:19:00.000-07:00

I think i got to blog alittle for those who still care about me..

My life?

I had never stop learning.
I will never stop fighting.
I never want to disapoint anyone.
I am stress, but i think i can handle.
I am sick but i think i will be fine.
I am tired but i think it will be over.

Btw 3 dog just attack me just now when i was blading in the wee hour. Luckily i am still alive... lol

2007-08-28T13:11:00.000-07:00

When i am down... i just sing it out. I have done alittle just now......

我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲
你会让我不后悔
这样把你宝贝
但你却教会我懂爱你可悲
爱不在了
做什麽都枉费

2007-08-25T13:06:00.001-07:00

Was on my way home from benjamin house after soccer watching. And when i touch my pocket and i can't feel the present of my phone... It was so scarly... I quickly ran to sun plaza to look for my friend to lend phone to call it out. KP was in mac, but i was unlucky enough that KP does not have ben numbers. Call KP to call Jl and luckly he able to reach ben and luckly E65 was in Ben house. The feeling of losing a Hp was seriously suck. First phone is ex, second friend Contact numbers and third, memories of video etc... That feeling really lead me back last year when i lost my 3230.

The feeling of losing somethings important is really scarly. When i lose them there is nothing you can do to take it back. I have lose enough of important things this year already... Sometime when i work hard for my aim, there is always some which i am going to reach but in the end it fail. There are always things i aim to buy but in the end i have not buy because when i have the money to buy the old things need money to buy or fix again. Sway rite?
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Its 4am plus now, feeling abit tired but i am tolerating it. Because i plan not to sleep. I am unlucky enough that ben is going genting tml morning. So i think i will meet him 6am below his block. :) The only probelm i face is scare my parent not happy i did not sleep... How ah? :p
OF course i understand sleeping late is back for health, but i promise to gain back soon....
I am abit tired now. Should i rest awhile or find other things to do and not to sleep?

2007-08-22T11:17:00.000-07:00

So a number of things i have done today.
First i would say today i am very happy to went chong pang with my mum. It was ever since so long that i went chong pang with her to eat. Although my motive was not to eat but to sign up new ATM card. :) I finally sign up debit card and i am happy. ONline purchase... lol.

While eating i talk about myself to mum.Very strange things when we grew older we do really share more personal stuff to parent am i rite to say that? I told her that yesterday coach say my training attidue suck, and of course she just laugh...

So why did coach say that to me? Its because last thurday after a freaking 45 min of badminton running drills it nearly kill me. And i took a freaking 1 hrs break myself. I went to sit at a coner to rest. Coach went toilet to find me, but of course where gt ppl rest in toilet 1? I rest in a sofa area with my sweat still dripping.
And yesterday he say that things which he ask me to do i do everything under expectation. He say my trainnig attidue suck i agree, because i have no longer have any heart in training. Even though i really like to play badminton but always there is another side of me saying this " train so hard for wat, train already i can be rich? can became a occupation?" And do coaches know the reason why i take an hr break? Reason - i have being taking 2 to 3 hr of sleep due to fyp and (some other reason)countinous for about 2 wk, I took 1 hr break and i slept at the sofa.
Seriously i feel that i cannot muti task well, there is always lack concentration in some part of me. Do u think my body can take it when i slept for 3 hr, attend lesson, and still need attend badminton, and the next day i still need to go sch with whole body aching? To be a sport man is really hard.

After that training it really make me think alot, and refresh my own mind what i want?
And recently i also tell my mum about my future plan target and all. And sometime she say to me " u everything also want lo"
And after lunch with mum went acer to fix laptop, i spent sometime walking and searching the place, and went i walk out it was embarssing that i saw the same acer buidling after 20 min of walk. All i say today i too depend on "feeling" I walk blindly, but when i really think the route i walk out.

After i met alvin, accompamy him to job interview....
And now its really time to for me to plan my shedule well. So i could be able to spent a meaning ful 3 week and able to complete the things i need to complete.
Oh no, still haven gt to take my pass O level Cert at MOE.

Life is still hard for me... But sometime some self relection make me awake a little and now i really understand that family bonding is very important.My bro and i set to bring parent oversea for holiday. My new aim finally....

2007-08-19T12:12:00.000-07:00

And windstruk is 1 of my fav korean movie. Stil remenber i watch with say kang.. So am i not destinated to watch touching korean movie with the gal i love? haiz... Let hope there are more korean movie to watch ba.

2007-08-19T11:45:00.000-07:00

Guess Who i met today? :) I met korean super big star "Jang Hyuk" Un firmilar with this guys? He actor in Windstruck , Volcano High , please teach me english etc.

So back to the story of why have i met him. Cause today, jl, lw, den, jj and me all went down to be extra. LOl. At first i still don't know i got to see jang hyuk because they just told me is a korean actor. It was quite fun sometime to be an extra, because it is a great bonding for us. lol. And we are in big hollywood screen maybe. The most scene would be JL, he is a kopi kia. And the rest of us all passer by.some extra volenteer to be an extra just to watch jang hyuk act only. Cool?
We went to a place where normal ppl won't go. The whole street was in the 80, we are so temp to take picture of tat place but we are not allow to.
So remenber to watch this collaboration movie, Dance of the dragon. :)
Some picture of jang hyuk movie.

2007-08-16T11:22:00.000-07:00

1 of the 2 song which i kept listening... 一无所有 and 没有你
It is quite a sweet song ba. But it really let me wonder my life is 一无所有...

我等了多久我等了多久

我等了多久任凭时间流过
虽然习惯了寂寞
可是我的心中一直有个缺口
继续为谁完整保留

有一颗星星从海平面闪过
他来到我家门口
而是光芒日是如此温柔耀眼闪烁
日日夜夜荧绕心头

除了你我一无所有
只希望你能够被我感动
当你感到脆弱的时候
让我在你身边守候不放手

除了你我一无所有
只要你能快乐我就足够
幸福往往不一再等候
相遇不一定能拥有我只想好好把握

也许这个世界并没有所谓的尽头
只是我们为所有的不同寻求一个藉口
当你划破我的黑夜让我看见白昼
我怎能抓着寂寞不为你动容
当我闭上眼世界如此的广阔
我不懂为什么你让黑夜如白昼
哪里是宇宙的尽头谁会和我到尽头
不能紧抓着寂寞解答所有的失控

你的微笑让我倍觉动容
当我偶然无助的时候
也许我也曾经错放什么而随波逐流
此刻我只想对你说
请让我陪你到每天尽头

我一无所有
因为我给你了所有
除了你我一无所有我一无所有

只希望你能够被我感动
当你感到脆弱的时候
让我在你身边守候不放手

我只想对你说
请让我陪你到每天尽头

THe lyric is sweet... I hope can i can sing this song to a gal i love in future.

2007-08-16T10:20:00.000-07:00

So FYP mid year presentation is finally over. So it is a day for me not really to remenber. Because something happen... Presentation was semi- acceptable, but sometime i really don understand what does the year of 88 always think of... Games, fun, entertaiment,looks, no worries seem to be their moto is life. Sometime they are like just cannot concentrate well to do things to their best.
I sometime do feel that my effort for the things i does have not being reconginse. I somtime feel that ppl think that the things i do are all not important. Thing i put in presentation are all not important. I feel that they think i keep worries this and that, but they nv think what are all my worries for? haiz...

I am not clever i agree. But i am better in design wise.... So sometime i noe what is important in ppt and what are not. I sometime don even know am i suppose to blog all this out anot... But i would like to say i sometime feel that they take things too lighty. If everything is so simple in life, then life won't be so hard to live. Agree?
But... instead of blaming others. I asked myself... "Is it i can't adapt to their life?" So maybe it's my fault.

So what inital happen on FYP days is actually, I Quarrel with my teamates... What a sad story to tell. It really a quarell. Because i get scolded for being laughing...

My friend leather shoe sole came out, and i press some glue into his sole for him. He treat its as i am playing and making fun of him? I found it really strange that he thin that way. I was just trying to help and i laugh because he nag like a woman... He scold me for nthing and i say back of course... I felt sad. Program was cancel because one of my teamates was leaving and his sole are broken. Sad story... Happy day becoming a sad day...

Could not get a picture with 4 of us and picture are blur. :(

I promise to upload the pic of fyp team of 4 next semester.

2007-08-12T11:13:00.000-07:00

I have watch "Secert" is a nice movie... Even thought i still need to clear my doubt after that movie. Its worth watching... And so after watching it went home to rush my report... Submit just on time, 2359 and i was so afaid... Ask dennis for supper and he called say he need to drive PQ back from PUbbing. So went there and PQ call us to to join them, but we are not allow to as we are in slipper.
So after picking up marie and PQ, went geyland to eat "duo jiang you tiao" It's wasn't that nice compare to the previous time i went with our gang because its was a different place. And Home sweet home after that....

Sat, Cab down to dragonfly with maine for dor Ablum luanch. Oh no i allow her to pay the cabs fee first, very xia sways sei... Haiz.nvm...
Er so when reach there find it is quite a nice place but i feel it was a liitle small.Saw replugs jounior there too... Not forgetting to take picture there...

(a picture with doreen singer of the day)

(pictures with maine)

What ah maine say is very true: "wei hao ah u see ur face no colour 1"
At first i was like keep " gt meh, gt meh?" But now when i upload into the computer then i noe...
Went to vivo and then walk around and they decided to eat pasta maina. So i pay back maine cab fare by treating her pasta. :) And only after sometime i discoverd oh no i am the only guy there... Felt alittle left out too.... After eating, walk around vivo and kelis somehow say she will bring us to a nice place with nice Scenery. So take picture there too.But I haven get those picture yet. Forget to take picture with kelis that day if not can show Wee kiat! lol...

After about to reach home decided to alight at kahbit to Ben house to watch soccer. And city WOn!!!
Oh ya, gt to say sorry to denis and jl they all cannot console you all when u all are emotional.... lol
After soccer catch last train home...
Sunday seem like a day full of program... And SP exam over? Really pai sei reject for K box because i put aside SUnday to rush project. And not free to watch soccer again tonite... I was rushing project and watching soccer at home is what i do the whole day.... Sad to say, no much progression as i spent time doing on a part which i later found out which is not important... :(

2007-08-09T11:10:00.000-07:00

So finally i am back to blogging. Seriously i cannot understand it have being some time which i can enlarge my font.

Have being really a very busy week for me. Stress keep on coming and i feel that i am going to be sick soon. I have throw temper easily over small matter, but still certain ocassion i choose to remain silent to avoid any conflict or fight to occur.I push away badminton and work for a while already to concentrate better on FYP, but sometime feel that project still not very good.
So what actually happen this few days? So some outing worth to mention like

Meet kervin after work, Shop and have dinner... Have a good chat with him.

Soccer watching with BEn kt, jl. But still remenber i was extrem tired that day.

Cannot actually remenber what happen already. Only know that... FYP, Understanding test, and report.

But of course i did not forget what happen yesterday. A fun outing. lol...
A gathering... ok la, WS bday outing... Visted swenson.... And it was like since primary school...
Picture to show....

(a picture which is somehow artistic, we wore diffent colour tat day) :)

So have found out actually earthquake is so cheap... Still remenber in primary school when i saw earthquake i will like "wow" But now longer...
Today a super relax day. I did nothing for FYP. But of course tml i will choing. Sundenly some though came into my mind... WHy sometime people think that they did alot.They like number, but why not quality? I hope sometime they don misunderstand me.
As i work really alot.

So EPL is starting, and i am so happy...Seriously i love soccer. And Beckham is still my idol since primary school. And a new aim i set for myself. LA galaxy jersy any one care to join me to buy?

My new desktop back ground too...

And Just now chat with qiang, he teach me method to earn money. But i find it too risky. And should i consider all those money as dirty money? lol.. Still considering. But seriouly is high risk...

2007-08-01T22:37:00.000-07:00

In class now. After just spenting 5 hour in school only a number of things happen to me. I was just being affect by those things seriously. First... I was sitting in the canteen eating but 1 China guys was so gay enough that he does not even have the strenght to hold his bowl well. His soup dirty my jacket... I was so angry, nearly went infront to punch him i swear. But i control.

After i had a call from my work place. Calling me to work urgently after school. Af first i feel like working, but so many things i have i did not done. I got test after school, i have training. Not i want to push the work away but is that i cannot work. I am stupid enough to think twice making her feel that i could make it for work just i don't want to help her. Die... She don't like me meaning i lesser job... :(

2007-07-31T12:00:00.000-07:00

A friend of my Im me to say goodbye because he is leaving singapore. He went switzerland to pursue his studies cause he felt that studying in RP was a waste of time. Grading, not fair, class team project political, conflict, changing class every semester this is what he hates, i still remenbers he telling me the previous time.
This friend came from nepal...

I was teaching him how to be a cheerleader. A picture where we took during our year 2 semester. E26D.

I was touch as he came wishing me all the best in my life and say a goodbye to me.
Sad to see him leaving, but hope he will really studies there.
I told him, u never know 1 day i will visit swiz?
And that my myself notice that i have international friend... lol..

Sri lanka, india, china, mrymar, nepal, malaysia. But i would really keen to noe more japan and korean friend.

And today if RP offical opening. A event cannot be miss.
Although not in the mood to party. But i still attend, to get free t shirt and food.
Mood wasn't that good but i still tolerated till 9 plus.
Some picture....

Went home early leaving ade and iris.... And there goes my days...

2007-07-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

I will continue from yesterday blogging.

Sunday recieved call from dear Zhen guang. He told me somethings... " wow, wei hao u know what? I am at lena house and her house is farking big"
Told me alot of things in her house. He say lena Dog living area was as big as our room. LOL.. And alot alot more... More exagerating is that he say that the combination of the story 2 and level 1 was around half a soccer field. That was shocking isn't it? And after he hang up, and send me a mms.

And this is her room... And at the right concer was zhen guang.
Heard that she is going to buy a k box set home. And pls invited me to go ur house when u have do so ok? lol.

And today what happen? Today i took a off day by being very slack. And today i want to intro my good friend to all of U...

And he is my good friend... From sri lanka.

And his name is.......

PANNALA KOTTALBADDA ACHARIGE SAHAN UDANA INDRARATN

And he won the award of having the longest name in my whole friend list. lol.
He told me before iside his name got his father name, grandfather name, and great grandfather name... lol...
And i use to call him pannala.

After school went civil with alvin and kw, slack n start talking about life, n money. Sometime all this slacking and talking is nice.
But just now recieved msg Alvin call me slack again... Everytime slack i sian la... And this few week gonna be a super busy week for me.

2007-07-29T12:25:00.000-07:00

Mobile blogging again... A better weekend for me. Cause.. I met new friend at work. N now i am a casio promoter. Lol. But i don think will work long ba. Cause i knew after few week i got to work alone.she intro me other new jobs too. N i hope i can get my 3rd job. Lol.
n today sunday seem like it fated that we will have a prata session. Jl n ben coincidence meet ws n pd at mos burger. N just nice i call ws to return back things. N just nice dennis is near sem. Seriously hope that their friendship could get back as before. I think it have being really some time i saw ben n pd le ba.
n today i finally get back my o level cert. I put it in my friend house for 3 year. Lol. Looking at my grade, i sundenly felt motivate to study. N tml i won,t be late.
n i think i will continue my story tml.. Sleeply already.. Zzzz

2007-07-27T12:43:00.000-07:00

I have my own dream, i have my own plan. I wanna enjoy life like anyone els.I feel that i should work hard and aim high for my life and future.
i feel that i should change to became a more ambitious person. And its really time for me to aim high and not be satify easily.

Everyone want to drive a car, get high pay ? But how? with just a dipolma? It not very possible seriously...
All i can do is work hard, think hard, and hope luck befall on me.

Now i aim to work harder for money and hope to complete my dipolma as soon as possible.
So i will step out alittle tml. I took up another job as a promoter. Don't know i can work how long.
Excited with the new enviroment and ppl i will be facing. I hope my life will be that exciting... :)
It is not a very high pay job compare to my contact lens. But it is acceptable.
Was waiting for my contact lens to have roadshow, but unlucky enough there wasn't.
I promise myself if there is roadshow during the 3week holiday, i will work the whole 3 week.

Btw a question to ask? Can "jiao ta shi di" really be successful?
Actually i don't think so... You need to take risk in life...

2007-07-25T11:48:00.000-07:00

I am using my hp to blog now. Lying on my bed, n i can,t get to sleep... Just now my brother tell me something. N now i am very stress with wat he had told me... N in life do i really have a choice? But y my heart don,t not follow with wat i wan to do......

2007-07-24T11:44:00.000-07:00

Not being excerising for a week already... And its so not like me.. hee... Badminton training have being cancel due to net ball tournament last week. But today i skip training and went home just to rest.
I have enough rest today, and i think continue like this i will not fall asleep in class so easily ba.
And finally today i sundenly feel a little motivate for fyp and i did somthing. I hope tml meeting we will really progress alot, alot... Our team have really no time.
I promise to push my self harder now... And i will do it.

And just now open tvu player and log in to star tv, happen to saw japanese meteor garden. San cai was pretty but dan ming shi, i still prefer jerry yan to act.. hee..
Think i should stop here, if not tml late for FYP.. Nite...

2007-07-23T11:13:00.000-07:00

So what have i being doing the weekend? Only friday nite was a fun nite. When chimjes with lw, jl, den, pq, suan, and maire... Have fun and took lots of picture.
And lw shock me that day by... lol.. okok... secert. i think i will join u guys soon...

Here are some of the picture....

The whole of us.... That waiter don't know how to take picture. Not nice....hee

And this is a nice picture i personally feel.. With orange lighting at the back make them like in a wonder land.And this is ling wei. 1 of my best friend in sec sch too. We sing and disturb teacher together last time. I think its have being sometime since we took picture le... lol.

And today, first time saw pq wore a dress... erm... quite nice... hee... i nv saw her hunch back tat day.

Using my E65 to take picture...

and any changes in us a picture? a pic we took few month ago in dxo bar. lol... yes, pq became more prettier and i became more shuai.... :P

After we leave the place when some place to slack.

and what are they doing? guess urself. Dennis the white shirt and money long the black shirt.

And because of that fri nite, sat sentosa was cancel, but heng... its rain, we nv make a waste trips.

Sat home, watching soccer, and nite suppers with zhao and han. And on 21 july was zhao bday. happy bday friend... But suppers till very 3 plus, make me tired. Han was saying like, its seem like ppl will mistake us as sembawang ganster. lol.

On 22 july 2007 sunday... Was Say kang Birthday... Happy birthday Say kang.... Go genting also nv say, no wonder i cannot reach you, and u nv reply my msg....

So i stay at home whole day... slacking, resting...

and weekend end like this, and i am looking forward to another weekend.... Hee..

2007-07-22T09:31:00.000-07:00

Sometime blogger is irritating...

Because sometime when u have post. It just don come out......

2007-07-20T13:10:00.000-07:00

PISCES MAN

He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in.

He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about.

He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.

He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He hates rules and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead

His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely.

He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity.

He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you.

He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is with you, he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him.

He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact.

When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close! to comf ort him. He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too.

PISCES WOMAN

She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals.

She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.

She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man. It's not even in her thought.

She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. S he is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now.

A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her , then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.

A complex character. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie. She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.

Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after. She can be an angle before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.

She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn. She! likes t o hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her.

Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angles.

- My friend kervin send me this and i actually found it very true for the pisces man beceause i am a person like that. But for pisces woman... i don't know. Any piseces woman to clarify?

Today went drinking, and have fun. Its a outing for dennis. lol.. Will upload those pic soon...

2007-07-19T10:00:00.000-07:00

life is just so sad.... Can we really decided our future? or can we really work hard for the future? who noe tml? one's can walk the road and bang down by a car? Then all the effort and hardwork have gone to wasted....

And today this song sundenly came into my mind....

经过那么久以后
你依然和此洒脱
我只能跟在身后
不问你是否爱我
也不敢多要求
深怕你不再联络
还是同样的结果
你终于说出了口
说你并不适合我
我知道那只是你的借口
你不想伤害我
却又伤得我彻透
你要求一片天空请我还给你自由
却没想过我从来不曾住在你心中
也许我早该看透
我们不会再有以后
哦也许也
许有一天你也会寂寞

tml after school program should be pubbing.... Hope i can really enjoy myself.

IF only i can really drink... haiz.....

Currently now.... New Crisis keep on coming and i have no choice to face it.

But i pls god to give me a hint to walk my real and smooth life...

2007-07-16T10:35:00.000-07:00

My friend send me a link of the poly-ite tournament site, and i saw this inside the website....

And yea, this is me who is playing badminton. I don't know who take this picture, and its was a match with NYP last year held in Sp sport hall. Remenber i did quite all right during the game. But can u see how exhuasted i am? My face was like super no colour, but i think the posture was nice rite? lol. Always wearing in my sembawang shorts and this is really a first picture i took myself in fully badminton gear.

I think people don't usually see this side of me rite? eh ppl i play badminton 1 since pri school. But sad to say standard is so so only.

And i notice recently i keeo seeing replug poster (consisting of me la) in school webmail. Good or bad i don't really noe....

So this is the first post on 29 june. And actually i am in my sembawang leader ship camp t shirt, and most of us are wearing short. Maine in team republic shirt, doreen on my left wore a nite cycle free t shirt. 3 of us are wearing free T shirt.

And of course i cannot don't take picture without my hand pose coming out... GOOD sign. lol....

So about 2 week later or so.... Saw these mail... This mail allow more person to come and ask me.. "wei hao u singing later?" i Say no to them, and i feel very xia sway.

Few hour later when i check mail, just before the concert.

And this was send again.... Don't know why i feel that the gal in pink look abit like maine. lol.. Agree anyone? hee. This pic i was at the extreme left from the view. This pictures was a pic when i sing hao peng you time....

With that i am ending soon... lol...

And my life now? i would say... i met with new crisis for me to face... and i am just a 20 year old boy.

God pls don't do this to me.....

Even i understand that, every reason have its cause and every cause have its reason. But? i don' t wanna be sick all the time....

2007-07-09T10:50:00.000-07:00

UPDATES....

And its show times........

And finally i came out with my first white converse design shoe....

And this is the shoe..... I name its "Converse super "shine"

close up shot.....

*shine.... *shine... *shine...

A far view....

The design may look simple. But sometime simple is nice... and I love this shoe.... :)

Actually this idea was a combine of 2 due to lack of resource i have in hand.... But i noe i neglect the some part of the shoe, so improvement is still needed....

And now i aim to design a shoe every month.... Can i make it? yes definetly!!! i can if i don't bet soccer anymore. :P And i will stop everyday stupid betting for sure.

opps, i can't wear to school tml due to stupid badminton training i am having.And also replug training, So which should i go? or should i go badminton? or should i not go both and just head home????

2007-07-04T11:07:00.000-07:00

Its a mixed feeling now.... I think i should really sleep more early each days. Night is so hard to past, nite sometime is so cold and lonely... Its just make me feel so low....

Why i am the 1 to ran with the winds?

My second compose workpiece is coming up..... I think i like it myself....

2007-07-03T10:19:00.000-07:00

Happy or sad? can someone really choose what they want to be? I choose to be happy.... but Sometime is just fated...... Born with such a life....

I think i should gave up to work hard in badminton or do any extra training.... I think i should really work hard on my FYP.

2007-07-02T10:27:00.000-07:00

i am late for school again... When when i want to take a cabs, it can let me wait around 20 min or so... And maybe this show i am fated to be late....
But tml i do not want to be lated for the module. I will try my best. And now is 1.30, i think i should head to bed. My brother just told me, our body will rebuild certain cell in our body which we have use everyday , and there is a time for ur for the repleshing of cell. After the time it will not rebuild.

And told me its better to sleep by 2... ok.. today i will....

2007-06-29T12:34:00.000-07:00

And today was my 7th performance..... And it's was really a bad 1. Because i have not much feel and excitment for this concert already.... Most of the PPl who usually get to performance along with me did not. The feel was just now rite. Always the previous night i will usually chat with maine to know what she will be wearing and all. But thur nite was a bored nite for me. No 1 talk about the performance.... Quite.

So its was a bad day for me today, 29 th june. Actually from the start of the day... i noe there is not right already. Although i did not really have a good mood before the concert, but do ppl really think that moody make u sing well? If u think it that way, u are wrong... Cause u just can't concentrate well in ur song. I today i totally lost focus on the song.....

The number of errors occur was,

i sang the song too flat.
my voice did not match the guitar
i just can't bring out the feeling
forgot lyric
not clear enough
mic not loud enough

So how would i grade my own performance? overall the 10 mark?

vocal(4mark) - 1/4
feeling(3mark) - 0/3
stage present - 1/3

wow... i only get 2/10 mark? haiz..... i really disapointed ppl. ke wei tell me, his side too soft and he can't be hear. Ade and pk came too. Pk say wrong song i have choose.... I throw my face to all the replug jounior. And i think i even saw pd sis, when i sing. i leave bad impression to all ppl.... arghh... sian.... My performance was a failure. And how can i end my singing like this? I hope is not too....

But no matter what i will try my best to excel in singing.... Maybe i should not always stay in sch to sing. I need outside exposure.... oh, and i also need to thank kian to help me play the song. I learn a number of things today.

Its may seem all right picture but all it's not rite when u hear.

cleary pic....

close shot....

And i took off the mic stand, because its is very irritating.... I can't sing well without my hand moving...

So my performance just finish like that.... and i noe she won't be there........

Changing blog song....

难道假装好吗？可能你过的我好就好，可不想要多一秒。。。

2007-06-27T11:37:00.000-07:00

Back from excerising not long. Because i excerise at 12.30am outside the corridor.... The atmosphere was quite scary as the light at the stair are all close. Leaving on the light to shine the lift area.... I was not afaird of any other things but afraid that i might scare others.... Also i am afraid that the police came to me. Imagining certain time i sit down and rest with my body sweating. Will people get a shock if see someone like this? Maybe i should avoid so late excerise, but should done it around 10 plus.
So today done around 2000 of skip, 50 to 80 push up, dumbell 30 on left, 30 on right.....

But at this rate i am cutting down alttile.... I asked myself? what els can i gain on that? And my muscles from head to toe are really so tight nowaday... Till i feel that its not good for my body.

And today... finally our fyp team started to quarrel. But really have u all ever think why i am always late? Because i am really tired and my life is already stressful enough... For the past few weeks? our teams are really not moving, Why sometime u all need me to motivate rather then motivated by ownself? Who am i? I know i am motivated in the first place. But I have my own things to settle too. Saying that i was always came late, yes, its very true but have anyone things for me why do i came late? Most of the wednesday we are just wasting time... The project is not moving.... haiz...
All of my team menbers went to attend a talk and left me alone, from 1.15pm to 5pm. So what can i do? instead of getting angry? ppl angry for me first.... I am tired, haiz...

But everythings is over... Blog is just to let u all understand how i feel. And really apperciate the apologise just now. I won't put it to heart, cause my lateness is a fault too.
and got to say sorry to u all if i really let my emotion effect myself and affect the teams. I just need some more time to get back my motivation ok? Just let me have sometime to think.... What should i want in life....

i am sorry for my attidue in class too. I am disapointed with myself too... I will do some self reflection... But seek for all ur understanding....

2007-06-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

life is already hard enough. And sometime people are just trying to make some other people life difficult...

Ok since the fat guy are going to be like that... Then i have no choice to fight real hard this time..... CCb....

2007-06-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

I think i blog about my story of a ant, a bug and the lizard....

Starting with the ant.... I was about to bath. So i take off my pant my clothe and everythings. So i sundenly remenber i should open the fire stove because i want to eat noodle. So i took my towel , to wrap around myself. And i sundenly feel a pinch poking pain near my waist. So i unwrap the towel and look to that area. And i saw 2 very small hole. And after a few second it swell.... I was so blur? asking myself what the hell does it bite me? So i look through the whole toilet and i found a flying ant lying in the pail of water.... So i conclude i was biten by a flying ant. But stange things was how does it bite me?

So, after around 2 weeks.. . Liazard came... I was always very worry the corridor of the celing where there is lizard crawling would fall on me. And that day. Its really fall on me when i was going home. But luckly its just drop on my shirt near my chest so i did not have direct contact with that lizard, and its was just a very short 1 sec only.

And the bug came to visit me few days ago. After knowing that there is a flying bug in my room, no body really body about it. Everyone though that the bug flew out already. But i was the luckly one is the room. When i sleep. I feel poking pain on my hand. So i though that maybe its was a sharp things on my bed. So in the dark, my hand went to that the things. My hand - index finger and thumb went to rub against the things... So i feel feel feel.... And i found out... ITS WAS A BUGS.... i quickly throw it against the wall. And i was like... EEEE.. wah, very ex xin lei... Somemore i still use my finger to rub... Rub that feeling, feel his leg, feel his body.. wah... i scare sei... I switch on the light to see where is the bug. And i could not find it.... Strange...

And after that nite, i had a nitemare... A nitemare i wish i would not even think about it....... haiz...

And so this are the things which came to me? Alvin say to me, lizard drop on me very lucky 1. But... where gt this theroy 1? lol... So when sat nite meet zhao and gang for suppers and i found this creature at my neighbour corridor....

i think it shall be a moth ba.

When i was taking picture a msg sound cames. And i scare sei, i scare its will aleart this creature too... Actually my neighbour corridor gt alot of all this things. I kanna lizard also at his area there.

And strange creature have being finding me.... And as usual whenever i sleep i dreams. And now my dream are all strange dreams. Recently i dream of a very big turtle in the river when i am crossing a bridge.

So with dream, everyday i could not sleep well. Even sat and sun i did not get good rest. But sat and sun i did not really go far. I am happy with it.

Was a relax weekend for me..... TRainning trainning... Jogging jogging.... swimming swimming....

2007-06-22T11:39:00.000-07:00

So its friday again... Its quick, and i am so happy to see weekend again... But its is so boring now.. friday no more suppers.. I think i will blog what happen this few days.

Start blogging on what happening from thurs... Thursday its was a very stressday for me. I am really pack with program on thurs. And i got to plan my time really well on that day. So what are the things that make me stress that day?

I got understand test after school. - i haven study
my team for that day in school? was very weak, and only 1 malay guys was working, so i got to help him.. And i stress up with that problem
And Replug half way say got meeting at lunch then say no meeting again.. - pek cek anot?

my dear ah maine keep on asking me on msn to ask them wheather have meeting anot...

i am planning bday cutting session for adeline.... so what should we do after cut cake? Jl come got waste his time anot?

Should i go to watch valerie playing cheers cup? I afraid she may be out of the tournament if i don watch tat day.

Should i go badminton training? Its very important because new coach came....

A big bonding steamboat session with all my brothers.... i think i must go.

And yes, this are the things happening in those short short hour of time. And i got to choose which program i need to attend. So in the end i choose to go for the big steamboat bonding... As friendship is always number 1... lol.. But there are consequence for my action of choosing steamboat too....

The important things is, badminton coach came, and selected quit a number of ppl he feel suitable to play for the next tourament. so that mean i was still like not selected i think... Also he correct their mistake, tell them where are they good where are they not good. So my badminton friend was like... " Wh u wasted la, come ma..." Then he told me now left 2 places only... Okok, next training i will surely attend. Butttt..... i scare tuedays i got replug vocal training.... Ah.. how? sian....

And also i am not be able to watch my friend play already, cause she got knock out already. Sorry ah, i watch u next time ok? hee.

And i took some picture that day....

And a birthday cake.... so our bday? lol..

I with Jl again... I told jl, first time come rp, must take photo ah... and btw can anyone noe how to cure eye bag? see my left eye? swollen?lol...

I think is better to show who the 1 birthday la.

So she is the birthday gal. Adeling ang hong zhai. Same class in sec sch 5 year, and poly same.. can consider 8 year friends. I haven really send my wishes to u hor. So my msg will be... : adeline ah, i wish you stay happy. Really... Must be happy everytime. Don so sad le ok? Sure is difficult, but when u have problem can come to me too. :) Sorry to post ur pic here, but is pretty don worry... lol.adeline with iris.

So this are the few ppl who attend this bday session lo. And where are all the other poly friends? Ah maine n des nv answer call......... n.... like that lo.

I hope she can be happy with the simple cut cake la.... And after that session its a rush. Rush home to put my Heavy laptop. And quickly get change and get out.....

And here we start our steamboat session.... had a hard time to thinking which steamboat places should we go. So in the end choose bugis. chong qing steam boat. Not bad, got drink 1... 15 only...

a picture i took when they are eating. Introducing the standing up guys. Is the king on monkey, LCS, and the monkey son beside him, Jl... hong chatting with botak mak -another ns guys...
those food.... and bracken don not what stun again...

I can't get any proper photo because the group was really too big. And this group is very fierce 1, they do all things.... Want call them take pic they sure kp alot 1... i think got 15 people.

And so on the way home, say kang took Jl phone to take picture... So.....

And the center 1 is saykang... Theme for the picture: "come let's take picture"

With chin hong and lw... Happy!!!!

He is say kang, 1 of my sec school best friend too. We went swimming together, went CDAC together. Most important things is that our family are very similar.... we have lot of simliar things. So does we share the same fate?

A picture we took a few year back. I think after o level ba. So any different in us? hee....

Really happy to meet up with all my friends. As we really long time nv meet up for a outing le. And i remenber the last steamboat was like 2 to 3 year ago. So got to thank organisor lw for the outing. hee. I never regret coming for steamboat because, Friend still come first... badminton at most i don't play lo.... lol.. hahaa...

wah.. a very long post today... and tml got to rest myself well le... hee... :)

2007-06-20T12:14:00.000-07:00

I am tired.... I am bored. School was really bored. I would say studies is really bored... Tue have a bad days... And i first time feel that i will get 0 mark for UT. I really cannot do anything on the paper. I just leave my paper on the table and just anyhow draw.... I really feel disapointed for myself.... I no longer have the mood to study. Thinking of just slacking everyday in school le. For now what motivated me to school was... My friends, and of course the exciting program after school. I like badminton, i like replug....

But both IG have so much problem. In badminton i face a new problem. Coming new coach is mr phua cb.... Sec school badminton ppl still remenber him? tend to look down on others de. And his face really cannot make it. I noe his style of teaching sure go against me 1.

Tml shall be his first trail trainning with us. And i am not attending it.... Should be going steamboat with my bros. Another groups of bros which we long time did not meet le.

And lastly good luck to valerie badminton match tml, hope you win ah. Then i can watch to play another round.

So many things on this week. Now i am looking forward to other holiday.... Bored bored school... Si bei sian ah............

2007-06-17T10:34:00.000-07:00

And today........ plan to go swimming in the moring but the weather does not permit me to... And thank gods i did not forget....

Today is MOkey long Bday....!!! Happy bday to him. Finally join our 20 group le...lol... And went geyland to dine dinner and celebrate JL bday....

But before going to geyland i went to sun plaza to have a quick hair cut. First time lets other ppl cut. Although its looks ok but i have my heart pumping so fast. I was scare. Its was just a normal young ladies triming my hair, don't know she noe how to anot. So i just let her cut abit... But i should have go back Alan to cut.... cause sun plaza more ex. And she do have much skill...Ah, abit regret....

So our first stop for kellang was a noodles, and its really quite nice, but a little spicy. How i wish i can bring someone i love there to eat.... er.... and today we also gt abit of feel like playing "shi zhi lun kou" Eat so many and was damn full.... And my plan for Jl bday had change. Actually want to spent 10 dollar on those 1 dollar durian to let him eat all 10 durain, but he was lucky that we can't find 1 dollar durian... In the end bought 3 for 10 dollar only. And its was really so enough for us already. Jl was really a good eater. I think lw n i eat around 3 very full le, i think he gt ate 6 to 8 seed of durian... And JJ scare of Durain.... lol.... And finally he admit he scare of durian, he also scare of corn and so many stuff. And lets some picture do the talking ba.....

they eating duo jian you tiao happly... and i was already very full...

And those durian....
And JJ was being force to eat durian... I Could not capture the Face when lw force him to eat that time. Funny.... And a picture of him, laughing his way through claming eating a very big mouth of durian...

And the 4 of us.... Although cheap durian. But i really can't find the different between good durian and normal durian. Its is still quite nice wat.... And from this picture you hows busy all our friends is in this holiday already... Jl only have 3 friends....

And this monkey long the birthday boy. But after i took that picture its sundenly remind me of somethings.... And i feel i gt another present for u maybe..... hee....

So does it look alike in some way? hahahaha. its was a monkey pic i took few year back in zoo....

And this are the activtives i done, spent it wisely cause its only 2 week. And seriouly life is short and hard, its there is time to enjoy you really got to enjoy. Love, money and friend? To rank it, i will still rank money last.... Buts why does money is sure a important things? And that life....

Holiday ended just like that.... And lucky i got music -guitar, i got friends, family to pei me through this 2 week.

And i think i have given up in school work le. So bored of school already.... its is like so sian. We learn nothing in school. And the tempo of learning in Rp sometime run just so fast... I think i did not need to work hard in grade anymore le ba. Staying at GPA 2 plus then 2 plus lo....

2007-06-16T14:04:00.000-07:00

So of course i am back from replugs camps... There are really lots of photo to show but i still did not get it. So will start what i did on fri.... Went SBA to see alvin and dr loke badminton matches. And i would say both play badly... espsically alvin, who lost to someone who he should not lose.. Got take a 1 min of video of how he play, but all he hit out 1... And took a picture of him playing too...

And he is the person in blue serving the shuttle.... I think i gonna take part in the next cheers too. Its seem rather exciting.... Cause is a good place with good atmosphere to play badminton in such places rite? :)

He play badly on that day, i think his standard that day i can easily beat him.... And thinking or giving back my old pro kennex racket a new life... Which is do welding..... Have any heard of this method? Cause its helps me to won lots of ppl b4... lol. A racket pass down by my brother... Now i am checking the price. I heard is 50 and i hope is RM50... if not it would be near to a cost of a new racket already.

And today went shopping with wk. Today went out very late to shop, but still manage to grab t - shirt.... lol... I am so happy.... But always he nv shop but pei me shop i feel guity.....

So after shopping went suppers with edwin and gangs. A must meet up session because he is going NS soon. Met him at suppers and today he already cut hair already..... So a photo of me and him....

And both of us wear red... lol... He is my badminton parterns, and we love fishes.... We went pilot pen cup together last time. But always lose in the first round.... lol... Our wonderful achivement.... Hope he will have a good time in tekong... Sorry that we did not play badminton b4 u go NS. lol....

And school is starting.... And i being to feel that this holiday is too short for me... I do not have the mood to study le. I really feel like giving up le. Boring school.... Go school also can't learn much 1.... sian.....

And 1 things even more sian, my "Y" key going spoil liao gt to press very hard.... PLs recover "Y"....

2007-06-13T14:15:00.000-07:00

And now i am in replug camps.... And now its was 5am plus, sitting in the agora hall typing this entries. And i am pack with programs. And my holidas will end really fast...

So i should start my post on tues where we i have a meet up with most of my bros at sentosa.

Sentosa that days was fun of course, but we are alittle being play around by the bad weather. Play soccer at the beach and of course do some sun tanning. And finally i got to kick a ball, the feeling was nice. i like... The nicest was the first games as i and lw was playing spectaculas football bullying jj, jw. lol.. Forgot to take pic at the beach but we take some on the way back home from vivo. And here is the pic of us..

And finally met up with them after 1 months plus i think... Not much changes on that, jl bluff me say he fitter, but.... erm.... ok la, abit la..... lol... lw, shorter hair maybe.... JH, JJ and Jw all no change...lol..

And so after sentosa went straight to meet kw, and alvin for the kbox session.... emjoy ourself there. I done fairly well at k box... :) The only bad things is that i sang forever love lose tune. :( and alvin say he did record down when i am singing.

And so a picture in Kbox, its was rather dark of course.... And after head to suppers....

And i am always the one holding the camera so no pose for me... lol... And so my tues ended just like that....

So went lates for replug camps. Cause senior big shot ma... but very pai sei... But good things is that the starting parts was quite boring, and i did not attend. :p

At nites was the games plan by the senoirs and its was funs of course. Because each got clothe to design their shirts and do a cat walk with related to the song which they are going to sing... Fun fun... And senior teams do perform too. But we did not do really well... we sang "lang hua yi duo duo" by ah niu. I do feel that our action are just to lame.... But got to say somethings... i did a very stupid action that make all my junior laugh... i act like tazan but.... don say better.... Got take some photo but don't show better....

And before we went to sleep. Ah maine say that first time so late still in schools so she decided..... open the door of hall e3 and....

And yea first time so late still in school.. when its was 3am plus...

And here is a picture i took with ah lim.... lol... oh, she will kill me if she saw i wrote ah lim.... A picture before we get to bed. Near 5 already... where zann and doreen are already sleeping... Finally a better looking picture hor, cause kian was the 1 who help us take.

And me with kian.... he look abit like cao ge if u really notice.... And this 2 pic shows the different between using flash and no flash....

And with that i better stop here. its so so dark, everyone was sleeping except me... And in replugs camps saw someone doing some things he is not suppose to do. Bad guys... Don' like him... ya, so contine my blogs maybe tml.... where we will have performance of song composing....... its 6.23 am... And 8 we will be waking up... lol.... Moring everyone..... More picture coming up.... tml....

2007-06-11T13:08:00.000-07:00

And its 4 plus now... And i am seriosuly use to sleeping around 5am... Was happy that my holiday was pack with program.... hee...
And tml sentosa, and after sentosa got to rush to kbox.... was enthu for it, really. But i am still coughing a little due to the fact i keep on keeping heaty food. But i tml feel like singing so many song, i will sing JJ "yuan lai" for sure.

Wed, will be going for Replug camp... and we will sing sing sing.... lol...
Its is a 1 day camps and end at afternoon time, and i will be staying back in school for badminton training on thur afternoon.... haha...

Friday, seem like a days i got to meet up with edwin my sec sch badminton bro, and he is going Ns next monday.
Sat, should be the day i prepare myself for a new start of a school holiday... So should be shopping with my best friend li long....
And Sunday, should be a days to stay at home to rest well preparing for the best start on monday...

oh ya, Sentosa tml sure make me tired and can't sing well 1....... but i will do my best. lol...

Add on... don't know why some ppl just very strange, when they haven go for the outing they say sian le... haven go how u noe? why ah? any body tell me......

2007-06-06T12:39:00.000-07:00

Today was a sway day for me... 3 things that happen to conclude that i am sway....

First i would say... i lost my 20 dollar last bet.... And the team i bet got thrash like hell...
So today went back to school to do FYP. As usual our progress is so slow, and today we only able to connect a circuit. And that circuit is not done by us, is the lab assitant who help us. And not only 1, our current lab assitant do not know how to connect so she call another lab assitant, and finally our simple circuit was finally connected and workable. And what very embrassing was that circuit is we learn from problem 1 of our module. And why are we all not able to connect? So i think i was sleeping, that why....lol...
Was in the lab doing my own stuff as my teamates are playing games and so when 1 of my team mates went to the toilet... So i tag along because i feel i needed too.

So what happen was, when i went in the cubical to pee and sundenly my friend of mine sundenly went crazy, push me from behind and so i Knock straight to the shelf inside our school toilet. And i went into a blur state.... i was like..... WTH, i pee u come and push me do what sei? U crazy or what? Really feel like getting angry, but i know what for? When things happen then say sorry? Haiz i am sway la... i nv really get angry with him.... But just hope that he realise his mistake... And i was so throw face " i pee half way lei, so even he is guys la, but he see everything... Damn.... But after the knock i cannot react to anything more then cover the part that i got knock. Is a knock directly on my left eyebrown.... Sian... Just afraid is another scar...

So after the knock i really feel so pain went back to the labs do nothing but feel like sleeping... Rest for about 30 min after i wake up i feel better... And so basically today i do nothing, they done alittle.... So check on singapore pools web again.....

So went back together with wk and gangs... Decided to eat LJS instead of our sushi. So decided to head to atm machine to redraw money to eat and bet. So was withdrawing half way.......
and the machine get HANG..... Damn.... my card was inside.... what can i do??? I did not know what to do at the point of time.. Worry.... And turn behind the person who is queuving.... And a indian gal just replied me " hang ah " ? then she decided to walk off le.... And of course some kind uncle at there help me out. Call me to wait and call the number stated there... I keep on pressing the " cancel key " but no use... so i standing there for about 5 min finally my card came out.... And the machine restart.... and i hear the sound money, but no money came out.... then in mind i was thinking... " oh shit, i think they deducted my money but no money given"... Angry and worry, so wk told me to visted others machine to see wheather they really decuted my money anot, so when civil DBS, so really... my money was deducted.... So i keep calling the POSB bank but the operated keep calling me to hold on...Waited and waited, and the operator so call will refer me to a customer service person did not happen, wait and wait....

Impatient, call every number neccesary but i think is after office hour so no use... Went back the old Atm machine... And some uncle who is still there watching the odds told me that some person did able to withdraw money... so i was stun... others can? i cannot? So decided to put my card back into the machine as to challenge myself and test my money is really deducted anot. So put inside and see.... But.. eh, the amount bounce back normal, but early on went civil to check is decuted but went back same machine show nothing wrong again....

So i withdaw some money to bet... And.... 3 sway things is, when the game is only half way through and the team i got bet lose... And is kanna thrash.... So sway... i think i will stop bet for the time being..... Really.. Wh stop awhile....

And so am i sway? And so call qurrael with my brother b4 he went to bed....... Sian....

Life is really like a "show" And i am a character, a actor inside.... Being play around.....
so many down, and when is my UP? But i will look on the bright side of life...
laugh at my own life.... hahahaahaa....

But a good news was, i attended badminton on tues.... went back... and was like no time no see.... i miss badminton and i miss my badminton teamates. Tml back to real training again...
And i feel that i have a phopia already, dare not bend my knees to much when playing... Which mean i disprove alot... Got to say sorry to alvin because i make him bored... I no fight...

And maybe taking part in a sembawang cc tournament.. .I will train hard if i Join... And what a long post today.. i must have bored al the readers.... but stay tune, my life is exciting.... With full of down.... lol... But who know tml i strike 4D? lol... opps did't i say i wan to quit betting? heee.... Er, i buy less......

And what will be my show like tml?............

2007-06-03T11:14:00.000-07:00

Going to blog what i learn this few days...

Sometime life is just so boring, and of course i am trying to look for some colour in life.... Satarday was a boing day for me, ended up looking for some program. So log in to the singaporepools website and see that there are plently of match up for bet. So spent hour analysing and visited soccer website for some infor of the player. So bet a total of around 8 matches.... was so excited on my bet and of course decided to watch the match i bet.
went to my friend ben house to watch, and i am "luckly" enough, that i lost all the 8 matches... Funny i would say... 8 match none of the ticket i won't. Damn it....

Feel so sian after i lost... but it's do make me alittle awake to face my life. Haha... Wei hao is poor and yet bet so much... Stupid... lol... But i would say is happy to watch soccer with my friends...lol..
I love soccer.. I want to play soccer.... Satarday was a soccer marathon for me n ben, but as usual KT = sleep...

So sunday, woke up at 3pm, thinking should i find program anot. In the end, i did not... lol.. But i spent my time wisely at home i would say.. I am happy.
But sometime i know about myself, staying at home whole day make me sick. I don't know why, maybe i guess is the fan keep fanning toward my back of the head. So today i am a little headache. But i know after i sleep tml i wake up will be ok....
and today miss out rare themo bball session.... I sad for not attending it also, cause soccer marathon really make me so tired... reach home at 7, bball at 10.30 how to make it? sian...
Haven really try excerise yet.... still abit afraid that i cannot withstand some human knocks and some jumping posture.... i will try tml... Excerise anyone?

So tml will definetly find some program, if not i will really turn sick... Although i love my home, but is sometime make me sick too... I am tired already.. A boring nite for me....
Think tml i will learn some nice song to sing ba.... I am really outdated on the music industry already.... so many new people and i don't know their song.....

And thank to music it's just add colour to my life....

2007-06-01T12:13:00.000-07:00

It's a boring friday for me today. Attend lesson as usual but lesson was damn bored. Did not do much things in class, and learn nothing much. Super bored, but luckly my days end quickly with lena riding us out to cause way to eat...

And this is lena car....

Riding her car, was inside disturbing her bf, i think next time lena don wan to ride me out le lo.. cause i always bully CQ. lol...

Siting on her cars.. have some though in mind. Nowadays why girls are just so rich ah? Charis my friend is driving to school everyday, and lena now told me that this cars was hers... wow, her lei, not his father or what lei... Envy them.

With that like that i feel that i am so useless.... Now not even a lisence... But i told myself by the age of 25 i must drive at least a somthing. Any cars that is able to move. lol.

They just motivated me to work even harder... but weihao is tired.... Even wei hao want to work hard there is always something blocking preventing me to do it...

Now i feel that the things i do should came with a little luck if not its so hard for me. When can i have a turn or change in life? People say its rabbit was a good year this year.... But i really doubt so....And when and where is my good year?

2007-05-31T11:54:00.000-07:00

Went dinner at Amk today. Plan to go there, but in the end never.... I think is not the time yet. I could just say that i am a coward... Walk in amk hub, and lucky, that was a new place for me....

Sometime i feel that i am just so lousy... Starting to afraid of holiday again.... 2 weeks... What can i do man... Think i better get to sleep, tml i don wanna be late....

2007-05-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

So boring rite now. Getting up today was so pek cek. Because last night i slept at 9 plus.... its have really being very very long that i sleep so early.Even when i am sick i did not sleep that early.... Sleeping the whole nite when i woke up i found out that i have so much things left undone. Was so frastrated. RJ i have to send by e mail, and another is which i blame my family for not waking me up... this really show how much they understand me.... haiz. did not wash my hair.... Was using the new wax from gatby and i left it on my hair overnight for so long. i totally hated it.

Actually i hated to sleep. Because its is a wasted of time. But sometime is my sleeping illness to fall alseep in class...

so boring rite now. In an FYP discussion rite now, and they are playing game..... last wed, they play basketball..... Not that i am saying i am very good. But game is not my style.....

we are just wasting time now.. and i feel that we are going to suffer when we know we don't have time...

Maybe should blog about what i did yesterday. yesterday when for replug training, and met my vocal teacher. And learn a number of things for voice. And check wheather our vocal chord is all rite, and luckly my vocal chord is all rite.... : ) excited to learn more things from her... cause her vocal is damn powerful...

and it was really sad to heard people say that i have turn skinny after recovering.... sian... i want to be fit. Now i think i can kick a ball. And do some jumping....

2007-05-27T10:07:00.000-07:00

Have post a new song inside my blog. its so nice.... its is call " byul" ( star). i just love this song so much....

The lyric..

The wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,the stars reassure tired me

they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don't be hurt too much.. they hug me tight and pamper me and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk

though my tears blur my vision I'l l still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I' ll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever....

A song from 200 pound beauty.... Nice... i just love korean movie..... and finally, i am getting better already. Fever today finally went down and gone aways after i went out for shopping... lol..

i have really did not care about so many things when i am sick. Miss out replug meeting, did not do fyp.... And it will sure be a busy week for me. And now i still got one more problem. Is my knee.... Why can't i run... Damn it... its is still so hurting... haiz...

Get to bed early if not fever come back liao. hee....

2007-05-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

Since i have some strenght now. Decided to blog awhile. The past few day i have being really very sick. Its started all on wednesday.

Wednesday moring woke up feel that my body was so cold, and i noe that i am going to be sick. But mentality speak rite? And i told myself that i am not sick. Due to my mentality i still be able to tolerate from moring till the afternoon.
Finally i complete watching 200 pound beauty and was so happy and i able to tolerate till the whole movie. Its is 1 of the best movie for this year i think. But i still rank sassy gal and windstruck infront of 200 pound beauty.
When i go home i know that i can't tolerata already, eat some medicine and go to sleep. i get well but my father insist me of seeing a doctor because he say my cough he so irritating.
That nite i though i was going to recover but i went to my friend house awhile i think on the way back home catch a cold again.

Thurday went to school, telling myself that i am not sick and i can able to tolerate for the whole lesson. when i step into the class late, the moment i open i laptop, my eye just close. And i cough badly. After first meeting i know i can't make it so i pon sch home to rest. On the way back home i feel that i am going to faint la. And people have u notice when u are sick ur whole body really no strenght 1, but leg just feel so tired and the moment i reach home its was like; yes finally i reach home that kind of feeling. Rest for the whole day but not much recover have made.

Friday, same old mentality, i can able to tolerate, but during sometime of the lesson i really feel so cold lo, luckly my medicine able to bring my tempertaure down abit. If not i will die... today, no prata, so supper.. i think for sat n sun is the same. i must get well.....
I think i am tired now... resting le... bye.

2007-05-21T10:50:00.000-07:00

So today... My brothers finally ask me..... And i finally tell him that i have broke up... Its just take so much courage to replied him...So afaid that this question will to be ask, but i know its was sonner or later.... Feeling down just now, and i am almost of words to reply him. He ask why? but i told him not to ask so much.... And we end the conversation just like that.... Don noe why when i am down, i listen to even more sad song to console myself....

And during that point of time was chatting with seaweed. she crack lame joke for me.... lol.. so a very lame question to everyone.... why does the peguin stamach is white colour? The answer was just so lame la.. better don say, if not ppl say i fei again....

sometime i really feel so tired... when i occupy myself with work and i feel that i overload myself. i am so tired and stress up with my life......

我真的好累。。。不要在做爱情的鬼儡。。。。

2007-05-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

Friday....... went to see doctor for my leg after school. Still though i have recover but i haven... that days was a painful day for me as, the the assitant of the sinseh really use so much strenght to press and rub my leg. That day was more pain compare to the first and second time when i visit there. And they bandage my knee again.....

Satarday...... was late for work that day. And was so worry that the 2 new promoter may like not happy. So met 2 new friends, hui yi and amanda... And hui yi like to sing too... : ) My days of work pass very fast working with them. But i still perfer there will be 1 guys with me. More stress i would say that day because i was the senior, and our sale was bad... And i was being bully, being a guys i need to carry things, sian.... but my leg very pain, how to carry sei..... but nvm la, is still quite happy working with them too.
Ask them some question about gals but they did not give me a definite answer...

today( sunday).... went shopping with another leg pain guy, wee kiat. So i shop for clothes and i am so happy..... But sad that i can't buy my shoe... sian...
After today, check that actually my spenting is just too high. I should really control and spent my money wisely already.
i think i should really cut down the money on betting. Have being losing money everyweek end. Today and yesterday i lost 30 plus already.
I think i really cannot spent money on such things le.

Oh a good news is that i took off my bandage already, and the doctor did not tell me to go back again liao... he say come back if its still hurt.
And now, i really feel like excerising. i wanna go back to badminton training soon. i have start to do push up last nite already... But after my coughing, sore thorat, knee problem and stuff, from a 50 time i now can only do 30. Sad rite...

i gave myself 2 week to go back training... And cheers is coming, excited for my badminton friends... : )

2007-05-17T10:11:00.000-07:00

Is 1 plus now. lost of feeling now... very worry for pp... Really disapointed with my performance in class today. All i do is sleep. i am just so tired of everythings. Maybe my ah ma funeral really drain my strenght away la. I just hope tml lesson i can do better. i will be sleeping soon now, instead of my usual 3am sleeping lifestyle.

And my leg seem to be useless now, though that i have recover but its still hurt. So when can i return to badminton? i am walking with poking pain on my knee now. Should have gone back to see my leg on tue but i skip due to my ah ma things. Maybe tml i will go ba. So scare my knee will be like more prone to injure the next time.

And its was 11 days since i cut my hair, and i feel that i need a new haircut again... Going to a same place may not always be a good choice.

since my life have change so much, then i will change further more.... For the better. i am going for shorter hair style. In the past... the reason of keeping longer hair was for me to look older. To look that i am older so when i am with my gal i can be older then her. But i lost the reason to keep long hair anymore....

And i want to look younger now. Small boy jiu small boy. Buy 4d check me jiu check la, there is nthing like a things call pai sei when they check me cause i am already 20 year old!!!!!

But still seaching for a good place to cut my hair, maybe this time i will really go to some greater name shop to cut le.

2007-05-16T10:58:00.000-07:00

Have upload a song. A video of me performing, hao peng you. That was a song which i really hope its won't describe me, buts nevertheless its happen.
Still remenber that its was my 4 th performance, but she is still not there....
Still remenber.............

that days how sad i was. After quarreling so painfully in msn, i feel so hurt. After that went down to warm up for the performance. Each time i sing, i just hope my love 1 would be there, because maybe 1 day i wanted to dedicated a song specially for her. But its just happen that maybe i was so unlucky. Out of all the perform, my love 1 is always not there for me to support. Maybe i am really not worth her support that y, or maybe that is god will....

its was our replug valentine day performance, and everyone is singing those romantic song, but i am the only 1 to sing this song. At first wan to carry out a romantic feel but i just fail... because that days was really a painful day.
recall, i was thinking weather i can sang a song which i wrote for her, but that performance date came too soon and i can't finish my song....

i do not know weather i sang well anot, but that day was really so pain for me. when i sing, i feel like crying too. But i can't, i am performing how to cry?
Singing that song, i really wanted to carry out my own uplug style of singing but i don noe how well i have sing.

THis song is decicated to you now in my blog.....

Actually i have more to say, but what the use of saying so much when its is over. haiz.. i lost control alittle again... i know i am not worth for you and come and see me sing, its already show how important i am to u last time... i knew it, but sometime i just bluff myself and hold on not to be a bastard....

haiz, have alot of things to do really and why am i still wasting time to blog? i don't know either. really don't know and i am out of time already.

我说你比较像我的好朋友 只是不小心拥抱着 ....

my heart was kill.... n i will not love a person who have kill my heart anymore....

好朋友? i promise myself i will do that. but...
in future, when i find somene i really love, i won't choose to fall in love with her... because if falling in love will only end up hurting each other in the end and only breaking up a nice lovely friendship.....

2007-05-15T11:12:00.000-07:00

Started my days emotionally, because today was the last day of the funernal. Tear just wet everyone eyes. This is the first time i have really gone through of these things. The other time when i was smaller, i did not know how painful its was when someone have left u. But for now, i am really grown up. The feeling for someone leaving you was really really so pain. For some aunty i saw them feeling all right, but when the time when my ah ma body need to be burn off, they cry so badly, really so badly.... They cry and shout here and there. There is nothing much as what we" grandson"can do but saw them crying. Even though i am not very close with ah ma, but i just can't control my tear too. I cried... so hurt to see all the rest are crying.

Really can't imagine someone you have love left you, and even more left this world. This kind of feeling was bad.... Its was the first time i vistied madai cenumentary. Today was just a tired day for me. Coming home at 5 plus, and then later taking a nap at 9 till 11. When 11 have a baths and really feel so refresh...

After all this, in my minds i am starting to be more refresh, refresh in my thinking too. I want to work hard in school. I want to continue my dream, and of course i want to earn big bucks.

And today recieved 2 strange phone call. 1 was from a person call "shiny", she call me and ask me to replace her for work. but i told her i can't in fact maybe could call jeff or his gf. But this gal told me, she find it very weried to call unknow ppl. But i asked her " but why did you dare to call me? lol...

Another 1 was a rather disapointment call. Don't know why this person want to call me. And its is already so late. I remain claim when talking... But no matter what is not my fault anyway.... lol..

but i am a little disapointed in you, if this is truth... :(

To the guy : but i am just nothing what....

2007-05-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

So... things just happen. When bad things fall on u, its really falls badly on you. Maybe its time to blog about my ah ma.
During my break up with gf was the time when my ah ma admit to hospitals. And my ah ma broke his leg when waking up from her bed.
So we all think that its would just be her leg problem only. At first his leg would be able to fix its back, so i though she is recovering already. But when you are old your body is weak and problem occur. Even when mend it back, the doctor say that the toxic just stuck his is foot there and can no longer flow. So there is a need of so call dailsis,( washing, and sucking out all the toxic) During this period of dailsis, was such a painful period for my ah ma, as even my uncle say he can heard my ah ma shouting here n there. The normal dailsis machine could not work and there is a need to use a special 1, 100 dollar once per use.

My ah ma on certain days feel so pain, and she pull off all the needle on his body and refuse to eat. So the adults have no choice, but to tied her up to the bed, to prevent her from plucking all those medical needs.
Days have passes, and the doctor just recomend us to cut off my ah ma leg as its was the best choice, as, his leg can no longer fuction, and also to prevent more pain of the dailsis machine.
Legs have being cut of as everyone think that she will be ok. As for me i also think so and happy that she can return home soon.

I have a emotional time due to the fact that my love left me, i did not visit my ah ma once in hospital. Because i was busy with my work, busy making myself busy, busy with emotional.

Yesterday, went to schools with my injure legs and was so paisei that people was watching me walking so slowly. Went home alone as there is no 1 to accompany me cab home. Moreover i need to hurry back to see wheather my leg condition has turn better anot.
Reach home, i was fastrated with my mum. Because when i reach home early, and no 1 was at home. Call my mum and asked her: " i thought i told you be stay at home during this time, i never bring key u should know rite?"

Mum answer me: " yea, you wait awhile can?

Hao:how long? where you?i need go toilet lei.

Mum: i at ah ma house.

Hao: oh, ah ma, recover and came home already?

Mum: Ah ma, go already le.

Hao: stun... why?

Mum: go already lo...

During that time, my fastration tone also tone down alot and do not know what to say anymore. Mum told me, Almost everyone was there, and i am one of the little which did not go.

My family cab home after 30 min and i ask my brothers what happen to ah ma? And they told me is that there a lung virus attack and that is the reason.

Mum told me, my close cousin was one of them who cry so badly. And during that time i can really imagine how the situation over there. Mum told me that ah ma did not open her eye in the hospital but when she is send home, her eyes open very widely...
After my unmarried uncles talk to my ah ma, and told her that he will take care of himself then my ah ma close his eyes and left this world.... Mum say, Ah ma wish to die in her house and not the hospital. And maybe that why she took a last look at his house once more.

Being to the furneral today.. And alll the praying and kneeing i could not do, due to the fact that i injure my knee. So pai sei, because when the whole family is kneeing, and i am standing.... At first i try to, but the monk told me that i can sit at the side. But i feel useless la, even my father leg pain also knee but i never.

Sitting down the void deck, certain time saw my uncle feeling so sad, i also started to feel sad. But i must act like a man. Atmosphere was tense at first but when settle down kids just run around and eventully bring some joyness to the guest and us.

Sitting down all days i was folding the papers, listening to song, Msging too. Got to thank seaweed for listening to my crap during that time. U are good seaweed. :)

After dinner went back home. Feeling so tired and i just sleep on the hard floor with my sticky body. Nap for an hour and went to bath, and i came online....

This things added some stress to me and of course all the ppl. Ppl need to take leaves and for those who is schooling need to pon sch. I don mind ponning if i am in sec school, but now Rp, my grade suck. Really suck. And what more monday is another Ut? And sunday i will be down there.

Few more week to closing of PP submission and i did not know who to interview.

Stress, stress.. Really... I don't wanna retain to do PP. This coming weekend i was shedule to work again, and where is there a time for me to really search for pp things.

But can my leg reover in time just to do all this things? Can i have the time to really complete my pp? Alot of things i have to cancel due to this stupid injure i am having now.

And its seem like there is no mother day celebration this year.

What a long post today. maybe i should really came out with a plan to shedule and deal with all the things which is coming...

2007-05-11T12:27:00.000-07:00

Bad things happening to me again and again... haiz.. and that life?...
Blog about its someday. Cause i really got a super stress Month may...
Will be aways i think for some day...

2007-05-09T09:54:00.000-07:00

haiz. what a day for me.... Today early in the moring mum wake me up to see the doctor for leg. Wake up and notice that my leg can't even put straight. The previous day was can't even bend now, i can't even put it straight. On the route to there, was a damn fastrausting time. Alot of thing happen.... My father gave me a ride to that place and my mum travel by bus to wait for us there. So getting on the bike was like hell man. How am i suppose to get onto the bike when my right leg was totally hurt. So my mum bring down a cruthes which i use during the time when i operate my foot time" the crab season"

With that i am able to get on the bike. So when i am on the bike my leg can't step on the leg stands, so i got to put my leg kinda straight lieding on the air. So during some turning was so afraid that my father would just turn to the right and then my leg will rub again the ground. Understand what i mean? On the bike, my father keep telling me not to put my hand on his shoulder, keep calling me to hug him, i insist not to, cause his stamach very er xin. Then my father like abit irritated by me cause i keep touching her back. Then we on the bike like qurrael also... lol..

The most fastrasting things came. I was going to yishun block 912 to see the doctor, but my dad blur ride me to 219. When i told him is the wrong place, but he insist is the correct place. So he keep asking me to go down his bike and wait for awhile. So in a middle no where, i was drop at yishun block 200 plus area. And my dad just ride off. My mum call: " where are u all? how come so long? "
I was so fastrated and then i say in a loud tone," father siao already la, i told him he aight me at wrong place and he keep insisting that is the correct place.
Really, i was so fastrasted, So i gt to stand in the path ways along a roadside holding a cructhes and so many ppl are looking at me. And gt to stand under a hot sun also, cause i scare i walk too far later my father cannot find me back.
So my mother call me again and told me that father heard wrong place to go, and he told me he is coming. Gt to wait for him for about 30 min. Was really very pek cek. Then my father came opposite shouting to me " hey cross the road" i was stun? With my cruches and i am jay walking a 2 way path road. Angry when i saw my father and i was saying him in a louder tone, "See i tell u, u is a wrong place already? and why you inisit is correct"?
My father gt nthing to say but say " heard wrong la."

When reaching the 900 plus block, my mum keep calling me, but i cannot answer because i am on the bike. So my father instead of pulling of me outside the shop but find his way to find car park.

Then i gt to walk again. Was angry because the car park was really some distance from the block.
Reach the shop, the doctor just help me massage and rub only. He say seem like nthing but if tml still sowllen then i got to go for an x ray. Damn it la, X ray at least 70 buck la, super waste money sei... For my condition now, i can;t even walk properly. And when i walk i felt so pain. And of course i am limpping. For tml, i don noe want to go school anot? Because i really walk very slow and i am afraid alot of people will sure look at me, so pai sei. Super embarressing. But i come to think of it, my grade are all C, and its all late, why should i not go school?

I decided to cab down already. i really hope after the nap my leg can be better. Yea, My day was really sway. Btw my mum say today is a day sure to rain, and its is really raining, she say today "wan mu nian nian" very sad because she gt to send his son aways.

My days really suck. Don't know why this type of things happen to me. Emotionally hurt really kill me already, and now i am phisically disable. I just hope to get well soon.
haiz, scare tml got lab during second meeting then i need to walk again.

But of course i gt a good news too, I have change my phone. This phone definetly better then bangadash.... But i can't get to buy the phone myself, due to my leg, and my brother help me buy back.

haiz, my mother told me, so many things happening to my family already and i now still like that? Nv take care of myself? Will blog what happen to my ah ma soon. Is so sad for her...

When i feel like standing up again.... And now my leg hurt.... So what did god want from me? What have i done?.....

2007-05-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

Yes, i went crazy again. And i post a song i sing again, a FIR song. Seriously this song help me win her back once, but of course now all is nthing i noe... I sang this song one time only n record it down. i sang during that time when i was soooo so in pain. U can cancel of stop the song if u find it irritating...

This song just decribe my feeling now too. Maybe the things i want to say ba.
How sad i can be? my story is just saddness.... So rite now. i feel pain again.... Pain in the inside and also pain at the outside. (i dislocated my knee just now in training. Now i can't walk le.)

sometime i ask myself why i am like this? but in fact i just can't control my feeling. Sometime i have already tell my heart to do, but my heart just don follow it to do.
Feeling really pain now. So what have i lose to? I lost to maple. Really lost to it...

Got to see doctor for my leg tml in the moring. I am afraid the sore will stick to me for life. I lost my voice now, coughing badly.. angry la. i can't sing now.... I wanna sing out my feeling.... So many things can't because of my leg and it stop. FYp meeting tml, judge audition for the year 1, and i can i still walk to buy my new phone?

And seriously i am very disapointed in myself too.I am late for school. My mood swing so fast. I did not do anything in school recently. I did waste alot of time which i am not suppose to... I sure get an F for U test... haiz...

if only a medicine which can control my feeling....

The song lyric....

当你决定你要离开我

我没有说什么就当作你自由

有好几次我都想忘了

苦酒也没有用就当作是寂寞

只有我能明白他的温柔

对你是种解脱其实要告诉我

只是你的最爱

其实你很爱他对我的惩罚

说你没有想他谁可怜我吧

我也没有借口只能放手

不敢奢求你说爱我

其实你很爱他他很温柔吗

其实你很想他就说出口吧

我也不想多说捂住耳朵

不想再次听到你说

你很爱他

其实你很爱他对我的惩罚

说你没有想他谁可怜我吧

我也没有借口只能放手

不敢奢求你说爱我

其实你很爱他他很温柔吗

其实你很想他就说出口吧

我也不想多说捂住耳朵

不想再次听到你说

你很爱他

你很爱他...

Sometime reason are just excuse for ppl. Because i knew that the reason is not the answer but its is only an excuse.

2007-05-07T11:36:00.000-07:00

Feel like blogging... But i am tired.... All i can say now is that, i am super busy. And i am very sick too.

Busy with this kind of mood, i feel like i like a mad person. Really... Waste time.... Why i still can't find back my old self?

And Seaweed my new friend told me: " Then try to be ur newself lo "

Sometime i don't know i should be happy or sad also...

Emotion... You kill me....

I don't want to be late tml.. i will try hard.. nite everyone.

2007-05-05T11:29:00.000-07:00

Everybody feeling sick, So am i. My throat really feel very pain now. On friday i nearly have a fever cause i told myself to be strong in the end i am not that sick. But there is a slight sore throat.
So today after 11 hour of working my throat felt really so pain. Now i am coughing all the way le. i just hope tml will be better, because i am going to work again.

Today work seriously we are quite slack i feel, got to work hard more. We keep taking with the other brand promoter too. Bad things happening in our company too. Poor jeff. Steal remeneber the paper bag case i have blog previously? and now that gal are forcing jeff to leave. Sad... I no more co - organisation friend le....

Now i seriously fall in love with the song ws send me. Fan yi chen "yi chi" really so nice... The first time i feel not nice is because i did not really listen but today on the way to work, after noticing the lyric i feel so touch. And of course sadness too. The song describe my feeling, really.
But can this song can really be so truth?

Maybe its will only be truth after a few year ba....

Btw, today i finally break my losing streak already. yea, i won abit today. Tml got to buy bubble tea for all the promoter there le... hee...

When i walk back the dark path way heading home i really feel so emotional, When i look up the sky, look at the star, listening to fan yi chen song...
And i just hope i can find ur horoscope up in the sky,
putting up with a happy smile....

2007-05-04T12:44:00.000-07:00

i have got a very sad story to say... but where can i start with?
Sometime i feel its like this... sometime i blame... But sometime when i really think about it. Its is because I lost, but who did i lost to? The answer is.... i lost to no 1, but myself.

This is what my friend tell me... Give in, give in, give in.....
A thing i will really learn.

So what can i do? when life is just like a joke......

2007-05-03T11:11:00.000-07:00

Tired now. But i feel like blogging...
went badminton today that why feel so tired. Things happening to my ig but what can be done lei? I also don noe...
And now our RP badminton team is very strong already. I am still thinking of wheather should i work hard on badminton again. But sometime the world is unfair la...
I am too tired to say anything now.

Oh ya, everyone now i am on my route to zhen zhi dan le. oh, maybe that why i feel so tired. lol...
just hope tml will be another better day for me and of course she....

2007-04-30T12:03:00.000-07:00

I have posted new song in my blog. Is a english song which i wanted to learn how to sing, but i never learn. I don't know why, this song just came into my mind.

And it brings us back to our time.

i really got to blame myself for having a super memory. Still remenber we sat down waiting for the bus @ chomp chomp, and we sang this song...

" one to make the dream come true, Two just wanna be with you , Three, girl its plain to see That you’re the only one for me .... "

So and the bus came... So Are all this sweet or pain? but...

yes, this is a picture taken from there. she is the photographer. And we will just back from sentosa. My face was red if u can see clearly...

i really wanted to blame myself to memenber things so well. Everything i do, everything i say i remenber, but no use, it only hurt myself more.

god give me to the ablity of having such a good memory of remenber such things but when its come to school work, i will like fall asleep lo... lol.. lame rite...

Oh ya, Chatting with rey just now, and i told him if there is still chances to performance, maybe the next time i will sing an english song... lol...

is quite tired now.. oh ya, today recieved call, call me go work. I die le, no life le.. haha... But there is money... lol.. Good nite everyone. Hope i strike soccer later ah... hee..

Then I’ll start back at one....

2007-04-29T10:37:00.000-07:00

So what els can i do? Control... and control... haiz...

Will blog about what happen today. Went to work today, and when we are closing, bad thing happening. because we gave some left over freebie to the other brand promoter. Was discovered so a gal so call having a bigger rank but same age as us. was so rude to my other friend " telling her, u better take all those things from her bag"
so when the other brand promoter was away, inside the spectacles shop so my friend walk to tell them they need to return all those freebie we have given. so when my friend went into the shop and then walk out again, she saw that gal already taking the freebie herself out of their bag... Rude rite? take things out from other ppl bag. Was not very happy also.
She was just so proud, irritating, annoying..

Reach home today, Was excited with recently soccer news. so open and check for the score straight away, when i open at 1 glance, i lose 5 buck le. Sway rite?
Recenly i really lost alot of money on soccer sei. keep on 5 buck and 5 buck i am turnning poor now.

Am i really putting stress to myself? pay was out on the starting of aprail. And i get 900 dollar this time for working for my hell holiday. i could not reach my target as i set myself a target to get 1000 in aprail.
so now my 900 turn to became 300 dollar already. I have being really spenting alot, clearing my debt and my daily expenses could really take all my 900 in a month. Betting on soccer and i have not won for so long. EPL ending i hope by then i will stop betting. hee.. i really hope so.

And yea, every one, i have a increase in pay already. Finally my turn, new company think that we are senior. lol.
So weekend i should have at least earn 160 ba, Plus commsion i think an additional 70 dollar plus ba.But today the other brand promoter even better, he earn 260 just in 1 day with commision. cause their sale damn good today.

i just hope i can get constant supply of every month 300 plus and i think i should be happy with it le ba. But roadshow don't always happen so it was quite sad too.

I will work hard in every aspect of my life, To be a better wei hao, Really...

But why am i always late for school again... haiz... Tml sure will be, since this weekend i have being working... so tired...

ya, btw i wan to go shop soon, this weekend no time for shopping. I have so many different style of dressing idea and haven go do... hee.

Shopping i come le, $300, bye bye... sad... lol

2007-04-26T12:42:00.000-07:00

你好就好 (Ni hao jiu hao)...

Hello everyone i am back to blog. i post a song which i sang myself. Ni hao jiu hao... its really speak my feeling for now. If you feel irritated please cancel this blog page. Comment on my blog skin and vocal is welcome but not to harsh if its is not good. hee. Because all this need courage to do it. And some more i only sing a record 1 time only. But i doubt the imeem can allow the song to play a full song.

I think i got to temporary put my link in my msn. So good friends don't link me first, i will change url soon and give my real link to u all.

so my life now? feeling so sad and down all this month, i am really like going crazy. i did not know you can pick up so fast. But nvm, since u are so heartless to me, i also could not do anything. maybe is me who is selfish to use such word la. But who make me fall into the hell ?

Life is really a joke. you can spent you life together with a person for 1 year, and there is left with no memories. compare to others ppl who gave you a 1 night of happiness and you can be unforgetable for life. This show that how useless i can be 1 year of time cannot even compare with 1 day, funny rite? lol..

Seriously i have really decided and think about it, i will never ever think of getting you back anymore. I of course have no longer any hope in you. For now, i really did not think i hope you can still come back to me. I really won't think about that anymore.... Since you are a person with no memories i think i am learning to be a person with no memories too.

The mj i like have already die. This is not the mj i like anymore. My mj is sweet, cute, kind, friendly. Not a 1 who left no memories, not the 1 who is so heartless.

But seriously i really hope i don't lose you as my friends. still remenbers our happy first sch semester? Whenever you are feeling down i am always the 1 who is always concering about you? Remenber when you are being left alone when they are singing happly in ktv who is the 1 who entertain you? When we are walking on the orchard streets i always notice somone being left aside, and walk to you to talk.

you are really a gal i feel i should really care for you. This feeling just came to me when i just met you, really. Maybe becoming lover are a real mistake, because its so hard for us to get back to our usual friendship.

Actually i expect all this to come, and you still remenber once on the phone i ask you, "we will sure be hurt in the end so do you really want to start this relationship"?

I don't trust love seriously, Because maybe we are still young for love? i don't know.

For now, you think when i talk to you, its did not need corage? but you are just so cold to me.

And i am now quite disapointed in you too, bad grade is what you want? i though you say that u are not going to be late? i though you know what you are doing?

but actually ming, i really know you, actually you did not know what you are doing. You have not really ask in life what do you want.

Open you eyes bigger and think twice whenever you want to do somethings.

Its late now, i think is time for me to sleep. but whatever its is 只要你好就好...

but i knew ..... 你一点都不好。。。

i really really hope you can be happy, as happy as the mj when we first met...

2007-04-15T12:13:00.000-07:00

So... A few hour later.. will be going to sch... A hell holiday for me. REally is hell... Never in my life, i have being so lost. So sad, so helpless... A holiday which i hate of having it...

Living in lonelniess all this while, losing my aim all the time.
I think its really time to get back to my usual self already...

I just hope tml will be a better day for me.
I just hope my life can be turn back normal later.
Sch start i will be able to see my poly friend everyday. hee

I will surely work hard this semester. I want to get better grades... I don't want to be late for school...
This semester, this year, i aim to be a better person, a better wei hao hoping for a better life in return.
I will cut down on my attidue. Throw more ego away, treat other people nicely, smile to people more often...

I am always so hurt... But when i think of it, who care? Am i right to say that? hahaha...

Now seriously hate this thingys " love". Because love make me lost a precious friend....

Improve myself... "Come on wei hao u can do it".... gogogo....

2007-04-14T20:17:00.000-07:00

Back from chalet... Its tiring now... But got to wait for hair to be dry. Themo chalet was a sucess too, but somtime i just feel like crying...
So its have being 2 month. And i just can't easer the memories i have in my mind. I am still so painful...
And how does this pain feel do u noe?

Look like we are so near to each other on that day.... Maybe we have cross past each other too....

God was playing trick on me...

Tried now. Will update the things happen on themo chalet very soon...

2007-04-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

I will be going to chalet. Will there be enjoyment? I am not sure. But I will definitely try my best to enjoy. Many things happen this holiday. So afraid… Something might just happen to me when I am there...

So should I bring my laptop along? Or can I really enjoy to the fullest? If Don’t count as a themo chalet, i would say a celebration for those who came back from their attachment.
Will the gang be united onces again, since the holiday is over?

Its would be so difficult if everyone can’t have a clear mind of what he is doing. Or maybe I would say a mature thinking.
Hope problem’s stop here for me...

Emotion are so hard to control… Every night I will think back. So stupid I am...

Seriously I think back… I think I have being cheated. I really hate to say this, but no matter what I think.. it’s just like that…

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......May god treat me a little fairer....
Really.... pls pls..

2007-04-12T13:38:00.000-07:00

The Parting Season... 离人节

Meet up, with friend to went drinking... I hate myself really... Can't drink.... Sometime i saw ppl, drink and forget problem of the day. But i can't... If i drank.. I gt to suffer for weeks... Drank alilttle when i feel unfortable i stop....Met pq friend, her friend have just break too... Seem strong after that... So can i conclude girl are much more stronger? But of course i can feel that, she is not very all right too...

They drank to forget problem... me? I don't know what to do to forget my problem. Make myself tired? Jogging? doing push up? .... I don't know...

While drinking, was talking to pq, we ask, why can't 2 person happen together to fall and give them 100 percent love at the same time? Why does always 1 give alot, and another parties did not.

Why when the other parties start to give their 100 percent love, he/ she will stop to give 100 percent... So is love always like that.... haiz...

Parting season this year? Lot of things happening... really... Most of the people around are all, breaking up.... A sad case.... But even more sad when you break off the other parties did not feel anything...

I just hope breaking won't happen to any of a person who really love another person...

Part of the song lyric...

不再见面

不代表我

不再对你想念

你是曾经的永远

会永远在我身边.....

2007-04-11T13:02:00.000-07:00

Its 4am now... I don't know why am i still online... No 1 to chat with online.... Bored....

Went watch, "meet the robinson" Quite a nice movie. Got meaning and a good story plot. Seriously consider it, its seem that its was better then tmnt... Outing with Cia jing and gang was fun. Cause we always have a change to suan him...lol. Sorry to u, but our word are all just crap, don take it to heart.....We talk about people and all. Seem like more and more people is coming into RP...
I finally see, ppl from sem sec coming to RP... lol...

This week is pack. Which is a good news i think...
Is it time for me to shop now? lol....

Better sleep now if not my dad is coming in to shout at me already...

Ur theory hurts me.... if love is always like that...

2007-04-10T13:18:00.000-07:00

Went for Work meeting today... A new agency which we have being pass to. So only 3 turn up for the meeting. Seem that our team have left only 3... 3 shuai gei.... lol... Jason a model, jeff and me.... The meeting was telling us about how the company goes and their policy etc... This time round was a little bit ma fan liao, need to write time sheet and all.
During the meeting our new supervisor was like suanning me.... Saying.... " so do u understand? You look blur"
I act blur because i knew if i was not to act blur i will sure have those irriating faces which bosses don like 1. But was kanna shoot that i blur la....
After talking... she was just like fasting shedule ask into work la. So sian sei.. Now no more firmilar faces for sure. Going to meet new ppl. But still got 3 week more before the other roadshow started...
After the meeting, eat dinner together with jason and jeff left off with her gf.

Jason told me her relationship things and he just break off with her gf. Sad case for her gf. Jason was such a nice guy, but she did not knew how to treasure it. Jason was a mixed blood, standing at 180, a model, such good citeria she don want. Every contact lens ppl in our company say him shuai la.
Another sad case la.... But jason earn my respect, he was so strong on his stand... MAN.... haha.
He scold the gal to fu_k off.... lol...

er... I think i got to sleep le.. FAther just came into my room to scold me... Haiz.....
Nite...

2007-04-09T13:43:00.000-07:00

And i am just down...

Today, did not able to catch the movie they have plan. Not that i can't reach in time. But the reason is that i still did not have money. But nvm that i miss... I find my program... Went out with ben to yishun to buy this things. And later saw pei qin and suan in yishun, accompany them to eat awhile and we went to loiter at yishun. haha.. Nothing to do ma...

Feeling so bored, decided to went to ben house to watch soccer. So before that i lend a 5 buck from him to bet a match. Went to watch that match, its was a bored goaless draw. Can say that newcastle play better then asenal ba....

So In the end ben and i both lost money... haha...

Rite now.. i am just feeling bad..... Haiz.. wanting to look forward in life but its is still hard for me....

Even more harder when i msg u, u did not reply, when u reply, its just a few words... Even worst then a friend now........ Haiz....

2007-04-08T12:33:00.000-07:00

Haiz... A tired day for me also. I am unsure of wheather making urself tired is a good way or a bad way.
Saw kay win(rp ex badminton) at vivo today. he told me that i was much more skinner now. After hearding that, i felt so sad sei. Still remenber month ago i told him....

" I promise and want to be more muscular if not how my girl will feel the sense of serurity? "

Kay win: stun.... i want to grow fitter too.

But all these is useless now...

Looking forward once again i am telling myself....

Take care and enjoy through out ur camp... Don tired out urself.

Reply reply....

2007-04-07T12:09:00.000-07:00

Misunderstanding? or....

Bbq was a success, but the strenght that turn up was a little less. But after all its was still quite a good gathering, as since long i have chat with tauqik, brack, Hy, cherly etc... Alot went back early, some leave for work and some went back for gals and some go off with other reason.

Before heading to the sem park, meet ben, kt, and jh. Having quite agitated due to the fact they was late. Or some miscommnication lied? Don't know.... But think in my shoe for that instant of me.

When someone msg you and at the back of the msg added: "don't be late" What is the first thing that came to ur mind when u saw this msg? I assume that most ppl would try their best not to be late, because maybe meeting this time have their special reason, so they call you not to be late.

For me, Of course when i read this msg, i will also feel quite disapointed myself as they are just like suanning you that you are the one who's always late.

So when you reach that place on time, no 1 came... So when you call back that person, the person want to hang off quickly without telling you his excatly location.

15 to 20 min of waiting was of course all right for most of the ppl, but when you call back that person to ask his location again " that person say "if you want to go you can go first..."

Ok... was that a fair reply? Think about that and that the reason why i got so agitated during that instant.... What came into my mind was " wow, when you are late, i wait for you it's ok, but why call me to go when i have already confirm meeting you all? " Selfish anot?

what more the wanting to hang off feel make me more du lan....

And late coming down even without a pai sei, "pai sei"...

Starting i was all right, maybe is the person standing beside me make my anger go up to. Met zhao in the station while waiting. I told him, my friend very buay steady, late still call me go first.

He replied me: " wow, like this you still can tahan ah"....

For me i could be easily influence at times....Now, i lost control easily, maybe that the main reason i got flare up too. Or maybe the person i talk to that instant should not be you, should be kt. Cause the most bu shuang part was this sentence " if you want to go you can go first..."

Added on, when after i call them, i call another friend, "where are you? why you late?", this person don't know got think anot one reply me " Why cannot"?

Ok... Fine... tolerate....

Writting all this, is not that i am petty.... But to let you know what i am thinking.... During that point of time whatever is to say is just crap to you i guess. But i guess after blogging today i will forget about this case liao...

So friends next time when you have something important to meet then add a "don't be late" sentence at the back of the msg. Its have a great impact on me now.

when you are late, it's better to call that person first. (This is what i always do right?)

Thinking back... Yea, i was the one of them who is considering always late. But for most of the time, When i reach on time or slightly later then the time we meet, i saw ppl who get later and later...

Habit have grown among our friend as everyone have this concept, coming early he would also be late still need to wait for him then what for i came on time?

That was a habit so hard to change.....

I agree i am sometime 1 of them when meet late, but i always give myself a 10 min grace. Don't late more then 10 min if not i will consider really as "late".

I knew i was the one always late in the past. I will try not to be late... I hate this word "late" now...

Because..... Why am i the 1 always late.... I am just late for everything.... Even in love.....

2007-04-06T12:46:00.000-07:00

Cycling was fun. Long since i cycle... Always have this aim of cycling with someone i love, singing love song while the wind are blowing softly on our faces... But......

Today was fake by my friend that they call us to go fishing, but in the end i did not see the rod, but a net. lol....
Catching crab is all we can do, as you don aspect us to use the small net to fish. Using the crab net, we get none too. But was too desperate so we use the nets to catch small crab...

Went home to change getting ready for the soccer at nite.... A tired day today....

Looking forward is all i can do now...........

I just want to noe that ...

2007-04-05T13:01:00.000-07:00

A long days program for me today...Sick.

Today was the last day with co- organisation. Feeling was not good either, because i will surely miss those days working with my fellow republician. RP, produce top promoter you know? lol

From dorcas to kelvin and to jeff.. All are top promoter, all from rp.

Still thinking wanting to continue with the new agency anot, but was afraid they may not accept me as what i am now.

Working till 6 today, leave to meet for a pri school gathering. Around 10 to 15 make it for the gathering. Was in nydc slacking and talking... Li long call a pizza, and i ate a small slice... But i was sooo hungry.... After that, we went to a pub in clark quey. I don't want to go, Cause i feel abit sick. but my pri sch friend keep asking me to go. They keep on saying that, hey " 7 year we have not met and you leaving so soon" ?

To avoid spoilty partly, i went. They open bottle, and find out that li long and i was the most guai person. We are just surounded with ppl who are smoking. Even she was smoking... she told me to keep a secert for her... lol..

Went in... at first its was quite cosy, but when it get later, its became more and more noisy. PPl sang, my ear was like damn pain. Even when i sing, i could not hear what i am singing... My ear... Its becoming worst due to the fact recently i keep facing loud noise.

I will really try to avoid loud places.

Taida, was asking me, why you look so sian and keep asking me to drink? Sorry lo, I want to, but i got to think for my next few week...

taida was one of my best buddie in pri sch, but we lost contact, he lost so much of the memories we have last time.

Why i got such good memoires? i use to remenber every single things i have done last time....

Feeling so giidy and tired. So we head for the last train. As there are someone is there have already being a mother already lo... Pretty and young mother i would say. She did not touch alcholol as she need to take care of her baby. When on the train i nearly miss the sem stop as i fell asleep.

Feeling so tired, wanting to head home to eat my dinner, but when i am going down the control station, met zhao. Zhao ask me for a supper. I told zhao i no money supper, but he keep dragging me along say " steady la, steady la, supper"...

Ok lo, i join them for supper... Feeling so tired and hungry, i sat down there drinking a teh bin. Chatting with them, they smoke and i feel so uncomfortable, i also don noe why. Normally i won't feel that. I became more and more giidy, and feel like vomiting, but i got to perserve la.Cause asking them to stop smoke is just so rude. Although they try to blow away opposite from my site, but i feel really sit. But i was strong enough to tahan for a 2 hour supper ba.

I was so hungry till that i feel i have no appitience for food already. Eat a little for the sake of my body.

Rite now, i feel so giddy. Perserve to type finish this post, as my hair are wet. Heading to bed now, i just hope that tml after a sleep i will be ok. This headahce last me 2 day already... sian... Be strong is what i can tell myself now. Sat bbq, i don want to miss it too...

Tml what program? i also don't know.. nite everyone...